in love with you.

2008-08-12T19:58:00.009+08:00

that night.

went out with colleague leslie & amy & with their friends. back home at 5am. i am dead by the time i reached home. amy came over my house for an hour den she went back. seriously i enjoyed myself. its been a long time since i had nightlife with friends. after club, went to had supper breakfast at newton circus. chatted and we played "zhong ji mi ma" and ate leftover bee hoon mixed with alot of ingredients. haha. damn disgusting lar. den took the cab back at 4:30, reached home 5am. had heart-to-heart talk with amy. (:

den on sunday.
meet up amy at 2pm with movie at Shaw Tower orchard. watched The Mummy. after the movie, met up with my dear pri sch friends. shop around den head over to paragon for delifrance. den took the train back and reached home at 12am. wash up and jump to bed. haha. i am very tired. very sleepy as monday there's work.

i love saturdays and sundays. fill my weekends with fun, joy and love! (: date me out! i will be more den willing to go out with you.

birthday girl&boy. same year, same month, same day! (:

and on monday. advance birthday celebration for bernard and evelyn. bought a bouquet of sunflower for evelyn and my team bought an expensive cake from Patissier for bernard. btw, i am a birthday organiser. haha... ordering cake and etc all was done by me. i feel bad to be lying to the birthday person. (:

bernard, STOP BEING SO SMART. happy birthday. hehe.

Beautiful Peeps. The bestest team+colleagues. Team Admin&Infrastructure.

23 August. chalet and bbq at east coast park with team members. i wanna ask u along. will you join? i doubt so? i am afraid of being rejected. therefore i am afraid to ask.

2008-08-06T20:34:00.003+08:00

Idiotic Receptionist !

Receptionist: jac are you going to east coast park on the 23rd?
Jac: yes, i am going. why?
Receptionist: oh, nothing. just wonder if your bf going.
Jac: nope, i dont have a bf.
Receptionist: huh? you are so pretty, how come got no bf?
Jac: got no bf cannot is it? does it bother you?
Receptionist: no, it doesnt. dont worry, i will be bringing afew guy friends of mine.
Jac: i am not interested.
Receptionist: why not interested? maybe you will like one of them?
Jac: no thanks! *getting pissed*
Receptionist: no lar, i suppose you will like one of them.
Jac: *walked away*

i should have just walk away. waste my time talking to her. you have been so sarcastic to everyone in BMS! everyone came up to boss for opinions of you, but we were humble! seriously, i/we have got so much to say about you.
seriously lar, i am damn piss! does it really bother you whether i have or dont have bf? WTF!!! eh please lar, dont intro me a 40years old uncle lar.

2008-08-01T00:15:00.001+08:00

changing of blog add soon.
no longer his piggy-jac.
new blog add will be announced soon.

2008-07-28T23:38:00.002+08:00

took half day today! meet up amy to go to the doc. she's on mc today.
i am on 1day mc tomorrow!
stay-home-tuesday.
all alone. ):
anyway, i am fine!

thanks so much to dear colleagues and bosses that cared for me. appreaciated it. (:

2008-07-27T11:16:00.007+08:00

update on my Pulau Ubin trip. 26 July 2008. outing with department.

met amy, jaslyn and sally to go over to yishun to look for shellen den her husband drove us to changi ferry terminal. den over there, we met up with boss jennifer, ada and josephine. hmm.. board the ferry and each to pay $2.50. its been 4years since i last sat on a ferry. the first time i went with sec sch friends. (: reached ubin den met up with uncle jerry, doris and jasmine. they are waiting for us at the entrance.

hehe. den we went to rent our bike. at first we rent adult double seater bike, and amy will be the one seating infront but the seat is too high for her and she cant step on the paddle but the back seat is okay for me. bo bian, need to change to a children double seater bike, its alright for amy as she is able to step on the paddle but its the seat is too low so need to be adjusted. after struggling for the bike like 10mins den off we went. had a group photo before we set off.

yes, its fun riding on a bicycle. though i dont know how to ride a bicycle but still, its been a long time i last sat on a bike. i missed those days!

after riding on our bike for 1hr 30mins, accident happened. story goes like this...

-its a really steep slope. and the slope is really long. we were still in our group at this point of time. but we were at the last position. when we reach the steep slope, we past jaslyn almost hit on her, told her. we past shellen, almost hit on her, told her. den we past the double seater jasmine and doris, almost hit on her but we SIAM all of them and so we hit on a RUBBER TREE!! amy and i can hardly move. we just sat there but i think amy stand up after 5mins? but i squat there for 30mins. i went black-out. i cant see or hear anyone. my body were shaking and shivering. at that point of time, i thought will i just lost myself there and you were on my mind! i thought of you. den after 30mins of squatting, i stood up. but i can hardly move or walk. i feel numb. but i am back to being consious. i know alot of passerby surrounded me and my colleagues all surrounded me. and afew of National Park uncles too. all offered help to me. the National Park uncles called for coast guard to come. and my boss jennifer called my job consultant to ask if i can have any claims. and every single colleague that were there cared for me alot. after like 20mins, the coast guard arrived, questioned amy and my boss to ask what happened. den took down our particulars. Mr Police send us amy, boss and me to the jetty to rest. and Mr Police continued to ask if we still need any help. whether we need any boat to send us to the hospital, but i insist on saying no need. hmm.. that's my story.

if we didnt turn the bike to left. den all 6 of us will be injured and lying in the hospital now. cos when we were on the bike, amy and i said we need to SIAM jaslyn, SIAM shellen and SIAM jasmine and doris. and so we SIAM of 4 of them. but land ourselve on a tree. cos we said we dont want all of us to be injured. 2 will be enough. the two that saw the whole incident is jasmine and doris cos they already park their bike and waiting for us. they were shock. and i had a shock that's is why i went black-out.

okay, that is all. den amy, boss and i sat somewhere to wait for the rest to arrived for our seafood dinner. big boss came over to me first to ask how am i feeling. and she asked alot of things too. every single colleague came over to us. thanks everyone of the care! thanks!

the colleagues at table 3.

doris, amy & i.

shellen & leslie.

patience and her bf.

jasmine, josephine & doris.

amy & i.

5:30pm, we went for our dinner. till 8pm took the ferry back to terminal. went to the toilet den oak volanteer to send us to the clinic for a check-up. drove us back to admiralty's clinic with amy. after that, her husband drove us back home. thanks!

and at the point i sat on the police car, after 5mins i search for my handphone. but i couldnt find it. i got panick! i actually thought i lost it. or it might still be at the scene. i used amy's phone to call sally cos she's still at the scene. but no reception! cant get through. i call my own phone, its still ringing but no pick up den it hang up cos no reception. i looked at the time. its 4:12pm. den when i got back my phone which is with jasmine, i received your message. the message time is also 4:12pm. why is it so coincidence. really i feel happy receiving your message. but i just find it strange. haiz... thanks for your care, hope your care for me is from your bottom your heart. i miss you.

reached home, had my painkiller den online but away from the computer. 11pm, lights off.

today, whole body aches. alot of bruises. "the very important part of my body" is damn painful cos there's a really big bruise! haha.. guess where is it? hmm.. and i also have a bum on the side of my head. i presume i hit the handle of the bike. the knock on the tree impact was really strong! our bike were in an awkard shape. the front bike of handle turned around. and the back sit handle totally bend down. the whole bike is out of shape. we spoiled it. see, how strong is the impact? the left side of my body totally aches and numb when i woke up this morning.

gonna be a stay home sunday. did plan to go partyworld with sisjo but cancelled.

2008-07-25T20:39:00.007+08:00

no more upsetting post by me anymore. its gonna be happy entries from today onwards. i didnt type it out doesnt mean i am all fine. i dont have to type it all out, just come straight to me and ask if u people wanna know. but still, life goes on.

BEWARE!! its not gonna be a wordy entry but pictures entry. (:

time flies, its been a week since amy work at her new company. hope she works hard and gain more experience.

last friday, we went over to pizza hut with some colleagues to bid farewell to amy in dbs. and i also did up powerpoint slides on behalf of BMS team. i am so proud of myself. hehe. most of them likes what i have done. i am actually very pai seh lar, cos only wanna show to some but not all. luckily, they appreciate what i had done. (:

my dear colleague send me all the pictures that i took in JBP. gonna post up some which i likes. (: and THAT LESLIE kept holding on to my camera and took afew shots of me without me noticing lar. some are unglam pics but not gonna post. hehe...

actually i was suppose to camp at pulau ubin with amy tonight and with some other colleagues. but its cancelled. cos amy is not going and i am having fever. but we will meet up with others to over to ubin tomorrow afternoon. hopefully the weather will be on our side. if it rain, den it will be cancel. BMS effort will be wasted. ):

O.B, thanks for your care to ask if i recover from fever. (:

2008-07-23T21:53:00.004+08:00

hey hey! in my 20years of living. today is the day i got my first branded belonging. (:

a colleague of mine, her niece was in the states. she ask us whether we want Coach wristlet. and i say I WANT! actually i wanted GREEN but another colleague of mine said she wanted it first. too bad loh. so i took P.I.N.K! not a ugly colour too. recently i love pink alot! (: but still, GREEN is still my favourite!!!

early morning 6:30-7am, is the best timing to take pictures of the sky, the clouds. as the sky is redish in colour. pretty pretty! when i look out of the window and breath in the morning fresh air, i didnt hesitate to grab my camera and snap afew pictures.

this coming saturday, i will be going Pulau Ubin will 50 colleagues! yay!! i am gonna enjoy myself alot alot. (: times spend with colleagues cum department is more often now. alot of events coming up. we are like one big family. but still, we miss amy! (:
life without you, its hard on me. but i am sure things will get better as time passes. after 4years and i am all alone and being single, i admit i am not use to it. all the 9am calls to u STOPped. all the 3pm calls to me STOPped. i admit i still misses u. i admit things would goes well. yes, i hope u enjoy life now, and play all you want but if its time for u to settle down, hope u wont anyhow again? as my saying goes which i said countless times to u, all the best and take lots care.

2008-07-21T21:29:00.007+08:00

firstly, met up with amy yesterday for lunch and walk around at admiralty place. and i bought colour contact lens! yeah! actually amy was the one that suggest that she wanna buy but end up she didnt buy. (: hmm.... i bought Perky Brown! damn chio lar. i love it alot! wore it for work today and colleagues said i look great with it. my colleagues perks up my day! said i look feminine today for what i wore to work. hehe. not one colleague but 6-7 said it to me. hehe.. (:
met up with david and guanhan at cwp 7:30pm for dinner. and while eating, their friend annabelle called and david suggest to go partyworld to sing. so we head over to civic centre at 10pm. sang till 1am when it closes. yesh, they were right, i did cry when i was singing yesterday. alot of things came floating by. alot of songs made me thought of you. i miss you.

new found friend-annabelle. david&guanhan sec sch friend.

2008-07-20T11:02:00.014+08:00

have got free entry to Jurong Bird Park cos we signed up for it as DBS Bank gave benefits for all staff. therefore, i woke up at 8am yesterday and meet amy 9am to go to Jurong Bird Park. meet up with colleagues leslie, hueychin and her bf, bf bro and aunt at boon lay mrt station. was being drived over to bird park by hueychin's aunt! we were all seated in a van and its really stuffy lar. kept perspiring.

when we reached there we were all super high lar. amy lost her control man! like a small kid running around. haha...

we went to look at penguin show first den to pools amphitheatre for show den to the rest of the places to look at birds. yeah! i enjoyed myself alot alot. forget all the unhappy things and just proceed on with my happy happy life with friends surrounding me! (:

the birds are all very very colourful. i love the penguins and parrots the most! i dont know why too. hehe. i took like 240pictures lar. but its almost all repeat de. halfway through, my camera went low batt and i have to ask hueychin to take pictures for me. so afew pictures were with her.

from Monday onwards, everything will be so different in the department cos amy is not around ler. account team will sure miss her alot especially KL. haha.. the evil aunty, i hope u regret lor! cos when you have amy around, you dont know how to treasure her. now u deserve it. she went over to another company. we will all miss your laughter and your loud voice. no one going for lunch with me, no one bothering me, no more asking to go toilet with me, no more asking to go pantry with me. amy! i hope you enjoy yourself in DBS in this 1year. and all the best to you in your new workplace! do miss DBS and we will miss you too.

there's still more pictures, will upload it in my next update. (:

how long will i have to wait for you to approach me? will the day arrive?

2008-07-17T21:29:00.015+08:00

i have got so much to update! its been a busy week for me. too much activity! yeah, i enjoyed myself alot. but i am sleepy! didnt have much sleep. waking up early and heading for work early too. less den 8hours of sleep! but feeling happy going for work. (: looking at all my love ones makes my day feeling HIGH! hahaha...
16 july headed to Esplanade for Magic Box show. its a free ticket by my bank's MD which is the magician's brother. and went for dinner nearby the office with afew of my colleagues. den we walked over to the Esplanade! chatted so much with all my colleagues while we were on the way there. we were very noisy too! and took a number of pictures too.
we reached Esplanade at 7:20pm. walked around and we waited at the entrance for the rest of the colleagues to reach. btw, my whole department were there which is 50 people. =p as were waiting for the rest, we saw a number of artist. and amy was the one who approach the artistes for photographs. so brave of her? haha. at the entrance we saw patricia mok, HongYiXin, Apple Hong, LeeMingLun. den when its our break time, we saw Felicia Chin, XiangYun, ChenZhiCai, ZhuHouRen, Pierre Png & Andrea De Cruz. when i saw felicia i JUMP lar. hahahaa... so happy and i took picture with her.

17 july- its BMS Tea break cum Anniversary of Staffs cum Amy's Farewell. (: all 50 of us were happy happy happy! so fun. we are having it every month! every month tea break together is so different. hmm.. i am the photographer for the whole break-time. but pictures are not very entertaining. there were 7staff which work here for 1,2,3 and 13years! wow!! and its amy's last day on friday, she's the main artress too. when she give her speech, she's damn shy lar and she almost cry. whole thing ended at 5pm. den finish up whatever is meant to done for the day and back home at 6:15pm. (:

amy is the one who requested for team photo. (:

i hope u know i love you!

2008-07-14T21:48:00.005+08:00

its a Stay Home Saturday on 12 july! was online whole day since 10am and chatted with amy since 11am till midnight 1am. haha.. are we crazy? this is the first time that i sat infront of the computer for so damn bloody long hours. (:

sunday was a day out with amy and sisjo to bugis for shopping. had kfc for our lunch den off we went to bugis street and bugis junction. didnt managed to find a sutiable flip flop for myself! i need to go back smb to take back my shoes! when's daddy coming back to fetch me over? okay, den we went to macdonalds' to slack and have drink and ice-cream also to camwhore. den this guy selling ice-creams keep looking at me lar! HURMP!! den at 8pm we left for home.
its monday! work again. btw, i am very free today in the office. not much work actually. (: is it a good or bad thing? hmm.. den went for lunch with amy's team members for korean food. and the restaurant is very romantic and very korean style like you were at korea having food. haha.

tea break was birthday celebration for Doris and Regine. chocolate factory's birthday cake. i love their chocolate fudge cake! (: the celebration was fun. we bought sunflowers for the birthday girls to search for it. but its too simple to find already. they found it in less den 10mins lar. hah... (:

amy is leaving the bank. all of us will miss you!

2008-07-12T15:24:00.002+08:00

Always Be My Baby-Mariah Carey - Mp.3

ALWAYS BE MY BABY (Mariah Carey)

We were as one
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I’ll let you fly
‘Cause I know in my heart
Our love will never die

You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling ‘cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re ever gonna shake me
Oh darling, ‘cause you’ll always be my baby

I ain’t gonna cry
And I won’t beg you to stay
If you’re determined to leave boy
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably, you’ll be back again
‘Cause you know in your heart babe

Our love will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling ‘cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re ever gonna shake me
Oh darling, ‘cause you’ll always be my baby

I know that you’ll be back boy
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder
I know that you’ll be right back baby
Oh baby believe me it’s only a matter of time

You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling ‘cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re ever gonna shake me
Oh darling, ‘cause you’ll always be my baby

2008-07-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

i am sick today! and i cannot take MC, cos Shellen and XiaoDi is on leave. so only left with me. i suffered in the office lar. runny nose, fever and i am feeling damn cold! after my lunch i slept for awhile. ate 4tablets of panadol in 3hours! (: thanks for your care, OB!

since april, i have been falling sick. taking MC every month. 2008 is not my year, its countless as i dont know how many times i have went to the doctor! hopefully things will get better.

*amy is leaving the bank next friday(18 july). its sad that she's leaving the bank lar. i will miss her, 10years buddy! your my dearest friend, seriously. you are my listening ear you helped me so much in everything. thanks so much for being here for me when i broke down! your a great friend to have. without you, the office will be so quiet, cos your the loudest in the office. 48 colleagues of BMS Department will miss your crap and your helpfulness. buddy, when you are in another company, dont forget about us. (:

i might be putting on braces in august. going for x-ray tmr at clementi. yeah!

-should i say i wasted $14 today? super heart pain lar!-

2008-07-08T20:48:00.012+08:00

monday was dress day for 3 of my girlfriends. haha. after working close to a year in DBS, its my first time wearing dress/skirt for work! all my colleagues were shock. yeah! and alot kept asking where am i going after work?? and i said, i am going on a HOTDATE after work. hehe. wahahaha.......... and they said i look fabulous with dress/skirt. ask me not to wear pants so much. they brighten up my day! :D

the girl is on the table, table, TABLE.

days at work is seriously getting better. i am much more cheerful den last month. seriously no more turning back and thinking back and kept wanting you back. jacinta is moving on. fate will decide what we will be in the near future. but.... FATE DOESNT always happen! everything happens for a reason. you might be happier den you are with me. just dont denied and said i think too much. you made me confused with what you said to me and what i saw with my own eyes. its really hurting! seriously, i give you my blessings and all the best to ya. we are still friends but i know its difficult to remain friends.

and today, kanna scolded by boss! i did a wrong thing. and i misunderstood boss. but she treated me very nicely and said its okay. she will cover everything for me. such good boss, where to find? haha.. one thing that made me super sian cos one by one of my close colleagues are leaving the bank. why? they made me to have the heart to leave too. no one to eat lunch with me soon! amy-10years buddy is leaving too. boring! and i feel so lazy to look for a new job too. i cant be rotting at home cos it will be damn boring and LONELY! and its been a month since i last took leave from work. take leave also sian, alone at home, friends all working and studying. *haiz*

this july i am gonna fill up my month with outings and meet up with friends. cos i dont wanna stay home on saturdays and sundays. yesh, with friends i wont be anyhow thinking so much but back at home at midnights i will anyhow think cos i am alone again. but i am trying my best not to have stupid thinkings already! afterall its such a long r/s, it takes time for a girl like me to let go. i am sure time will heal.
this coming saturday i am going to a colleague-shellen's house at smb to play mahjong and might be staying over to play with her baby boy. (: den sunday heading off to malaysia with the same colleague for shopping spree cos malaysia is having sale now. will be keeping this secret away from mummy cos she's afraid of my danger at malaysia. but i promise to come back in one piece. haha.... yeah! and 25 july going for camping at pulau ubin till the next day for DBS outing! confirm damn tired lar. cos 26 july, after seafood dinner is about 8pm already. but i will spend it fruitfully.

ME !

2008-07-06T01:14:00.002+08:00

i just reached home. went out the whole day. morning time was back at his house to take my things.
1pm, meet huiling at Sembawang platform and head to Plaza Singapura to shop. had our lunch at Foodcourt. walked around and i spend a BOMB on clothes. seriously, this is the first time in one day i spend so much on clothes alone. *not revealing the amount, i am shock too*
till 5pm, ling went off to her grandma's house. amy came. we went to This Fashion to shop and bought a cardigan for my dress to wear it for work on monday. den went over to longjohn for our dinner. after that walked around at The Cathay till 8plus. met up with ling again for our movie-Hancock. the show is damn interesting lar! you all should go and catch it too. (: but cinemas is always filled with couples! that's sickening! i hate going to cinemas now!
after movie, took the train back home. had a heart to heart talk with ling today. its hurts my heart so badly to talk about you/to think about you. you flashed through my mind every single day without fail. will time prove and heal everything? your conversation with me on 3 july, is it all the truth from your heart?

another one.
karma?
but you know..
you just wont be able to put in 100% for him
and you know that he will be very serious with you
and you dont want to break his heart
because you really know that he deserve better?
like he is really nice to you
but the problem is not him
its just me. and it goes again,
i will break someone's heart.

its been exactly 1month since we last met.
its been exactly 1month since we broke up.
how are you doing?
060608.

2008-07-03T21:10:00.002+08:00

satisfy me with Chicken Mcnuggets + Jasmine Green Tea !
i would be damn happy.

dear friends, thanks for making my everyday so busy and spending everyday with me so fruitfully. thanks for planning gatherings just so that i wont think so much at home. time doesnt wait for anyone, i must move on. and i will move on. whatever happened, happens for a reason. no point dwelling to the past.

channel 8 9pm show is super duper sad lar. i dont want the show to end! but its last episode is this friday lar. some parts of the show like so similar to mine. haha...

i have got a busy schedule this July. its so rare lar.
16 July - Magic Box @ esplanade. sponsored by DBS MD.
19 July - Jurong Bird Park with colleagues
26 July - Pulau Ubin with my department colleague. fishing, cycling, seafood dinner.

To the brokenhearted women, please heed these words I say. The pain you think eternal, will come to rest one day.
Your destiny has whispered,he wasn't the one for you.True love would never allow the pain he's put you through.
A soulmate will always protect you,he won't hurt you in any way.The bond that forms between you should grow stronger every day.
Don't shed your tears in silence,there was nothing you could do.God gave you the strength of a woman,and your faith to carry you through.
Time is short and precious,so make each moment last. Live for today and tomorrow,don't dwell upon the past.
The one that left you broken will come to rue the day,and the pain you thought eternal,will slowly fade away.

2008-07-01T23:05:00.002+08:00

BLOODY SHIT !

i screwed up my day, today!
i am super careless for the whole of today.
every document to DBS Private Banking is I-M-P-O-R-T-A-N-T !
i almost lost one document from client.
i searched the whole Level 27 & Level 28 !
taking the lift up and down.
for like 30minutes and i still can't find it.
i got panicked of cos.
i asked Shellen for help.
we planned not to let boss know first.
after 1hour, Shellen found the document for me.
i am very very careless lar.
as the document does not have the assistants name,
its the manager's name,
so i left the document on the manager's table,
and i forgot about it.
luckily, she helped me.
if not, i will be chopped! haha.
cos this isn't the first time already.
i have been careless since last month!
but my boss still dote on me so much.
seriously i wont bare to leave this company + department.
i got "niao" by Shellen lar.
but i know she understands me,
i need time okay!

yesterday and today and the day before, i bought total of one white pants, one white skirt and one bright blue pop up dress. spend 60-70bucks. i need to save up! as i need to re-module my current course in november. actually there's an intake on 16th july, but i dont think i can concentrate yet. this 4months, i will try my best to put things behind and concentrate more on my work and school. love life will be left behind my back for this period of time. i would like to enjoy my single life now. but if love comes, if i really can't hold it, i might fall for it.

i hope everything is fine at your side. i thought of you.

2008-06-29T18:27:00.004+08:00

past weeks was a hectic week for me. work pile up on my desk. colleauges all strewed up. but one thing to make things clear, my colleauges really make my days to be so colourful! no more super low days for me.

last friday, after my team meeting + team dinner + surprise birthday celebration. everything end at 9pm. afew of us head for late night outing at clarke quay. all of us head back home at 2am. seriously, its really tiring as its almost a 24hours without heading home. i felt so uncomfortable with the make-ups on me and sticky body. (:

saturday was spend with jeanette and esther. bought mac to esther's house but she's not home yet, so we head over to sembawang's kopitiam to eat and wait for her. went over to esther's at 10pm and we went back home at 12am. took a cab home.

awWww...... my money have all wasted on late night cab fares! its freaking ex lar. what to do?! i enjoyed all the late nights now with accompaniment from friends.

what else? its MONDAY BLUES again! its work again. BORING!!!

random. this baby boy is super cute lar. he's a child of my colleague. -pic taken in office pantry-

he cried, cos amy's voice is too loud and scare him.

2008-06-26T21:20:00.002+08:00

Life only comes around once, make sure u spend it with the right person .... Find a guy ... who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "

to all couples out there,
Life only comes around once,
make sure you treasure it,
make sure there's won't be any regrets.

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hey, channel 8, 9pm show is F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C !
i watched it, i teared.
anyway, i love surprises! and i want surprises! (:
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qns: why will a few years relationship losing to someone from international ?
ans: she may be prettier den me.
ans: treated you better den i treated you.
ans: she give you more freedom.

2008-06-24T22:42:00.002+08:00

this piece of note cheered me up. thanks lots girlfriend. (:

i will remain strong. dont cha worry bout me. (:

2008-06-22T12:34:00.003+08:00

jac has cheer-ed up already. i am no longer the past ME. no matter what has happened, life still moves on. friends are still here for me. so there's no point being so disappointed already. what happen, happens for a reason.

seriously, i thank teng & eddy, ling, amy, nette, angeline, david & han for being here for me. listening to what i wanted to say. tolerating me venting my anger on them. tolerating my nonsense. going out with me whenever i need them. thanks so much. friends are forever, boys are whatever. haha...

jac has grown up, she no longer pester you when there's a break up. if i were the past me, i will be pestering you with calls and msges. afterall, we are teenage lover. we are grown up adults now. i treasured this r/s, i am happy that i once have you by my side. these 4years, 1460days, i didnt regret a single thing. 4years just like nothing to me now. i have done my part as a gf to you. haiz. seriously, after what had happened, i really felt the pain in my heart! no one understands it accept teng and ling!

dear friends, not to worry about me, all of you said i am strong cos its actually a 1460days r/s, and i still can take it. after all the tears i have cried, i am a fresh jac now. no more crying anymore, though i will still miss our times. i still think of our days being together, of cos!

if we are meant for each other, nothing/nobody can seperate us.
if our love is strong, we will cross path again.
till then, all the best and take lots care.

2008-06-15T09:24:00.003+08:00

i will learn not to pit high hopes,
i will learn not to bring my heart to point zero, and break down.
i will learn not to be a selfish person,
i have learnt to trust every single thing you have said, since the beginning.

The important thing is not to be bitter over
life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the
past and recognize that every day won't be
sunny. and when you find yourself lost in the
darkness of despair, remember - its only in the
black of night that you see the stars, and those
stars lead you back home .. so don't be afraid to
make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because
most of the time the greatest rewards come
from doing things that scare you the most.
Maybe you'll get everything you wish for.
Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have
imagines. Who knows where life will take you?

i would want to be that special someone you turn to when you are depressed.
i wish you wont forget about me as your teenage lover.

i wish you will appear at my doorstep,
and whisper to me,
-everything is fine now, you are still my piggy.-

2008-06-13T01:05:00.002+08:00

i wanna watch movies.
but i am afraid i will see damn lots of couples.

btw,
i wanna watch,
Incredible Hulk. (released)
KungFu Panda. (released and ending soon)
You Don't Mess With the Zohan. (releasing 19 jun 08)

this weekend i am gonna be alone.
no friends have got free time to go out with me.
sisjo, please hang out with me!

*i promised all of you that i will stay happy no matter of the outcome.*

2008-06-11T21:29:00.005+08:00

i still misses you, i admit.

i still have love for you, i admit.

regret.
i cant change the fact.
i can only wait and wait.
but, i shouldn't put too much hope in it too.

whether or not he will change his mind in meeting me.
whether or not we will be back together.
whether or not his love for me is still there.

i feel that i am alone.
i dont wish this to be a big issue.
i need a shoulder to cry on.

i shall go for a movie on my own!
cause most of my friends have already watch it, EXCEPT ME!
i wanna watch Kungfu Panda!

2008-06-10T22:27:00.002+08:00

can please dont rain?
rain rain go away

i am so afraid of thunder and lightning.
few minutes ago, the strike is damn loud lar.
it scared the freak out of me man.
yes, i shouted!
too loud already.

2008-06-09T18:22:00.003+08:00

am back from the x-ray, report will be send back to the clinic and they will call me up.

anyway, i wanna watch KungFu Panda.

who wanna watch it with me?

i am free this weekend.

any girlfriends of mine are free to company me to watch it?

2008-06-08T23:44:00.002+08:00

told boss that i wanted half-day leave tml. but she didnt reply me. dont know whether was it approved. No.1, no mood to work. No.2, going SATA for X-Ray.

i am still sick, sorethroat getting bad, no medic with me now. flu turning bad to worst. my coughing cant help it already, bad to worst.

How are you still with me?
After all the screaming and anger,
after everything flies out of my hands?
Where do you find inside you to still love me like the first day?
Everyday I put you through hell,
everyday I make you feel what it would be like
to live a normal life without the everyday
hassles that protrude from my lips.
It’s no wonder you doubt our future
and no wonder why you feel insecure about
us taking the next step.
I still hurt inside from the past,
at times it eats me up inside and all I want to do is disappear.
It might not have been much to you but to me,
it was my world.
I became someone different,
someone jealous and insecure and that’s
what I’ve had to feed off on.
I’ve lost myself in the process and wish to have my
happiness back as well but it’s harder to leave this place.
Once I walked into this torment,
the door was shut behind me and the key thrown out.
I’ve been searching for it ever since.
I think I’m getting warmer…
I have to seclude myself for a while,
think hard and deep, change.
If I want to be with you, then this is how it’s going to have to be.
Please forgive me for all the heartaches I’ve caused you.
Please forgive me for not putting all the trust,
faith and confidence in you that you need
and have continuously asked for.
Please know that it’s not that I don’t want to
or that I think you don’t deserve it.
Just picture it like taking a risk without anything to lean on
In the end, I could have it all or lose it once and for all.

2008-06-04T15:07:00.002+08:00

03-06-08
4years1month to hubby and piggy.

hopefully everything is back to its track.

left the office early yesterday as i am sick. took mc today.
its god will that i cant go Zouk with my colleagues today for celebration. they planned to go today as its ladies night. and its gonna be my virgin night as i never go clubbing before. and now i am sick so i cant go already. was it god's will? haha.. anyway, i also dont have the urge to go too. i know i wont like the atmosphere there.

heading to the doctor now.

2008-06-01T13:07:00.002+08:00

I thought you were the best,
I thought you were the one,
I thought you were mine.....
All a lie....
I admit,you had my heart,no, you still have my heart!
I admit,I still love you!
I admit,I still want you!
I admit,I still need you!
I admit,I still miss you....!
You are the
most handsome,
most awesome,
most loved person to me!
Also, you are the
most hated,
most horrible,
most evil person I know!
I loved you,
you played me...
I trusted you,
You lied to me...
I gave you my all,
You gave me nothing......
Now I only wonder who i am to you??
I am nothing, right?

poem i extracted from somewhere.
i dont want this love to end.

i love you wholeheartly.

i have said it numourous times, i have repeat some-things again and again, but nothing changed in you.

i dont want this week of mine to repeat again. 26may-1june simply sucks to the core!

though we are living under the same nest but nothing seems to be right.
hundreds of smses have been send to you, hope you think through what i have said to you. whether how u have treated me, was it fair to me. i just cant bring myself to see us like this.

i dont want this 4years to be gone to waste. that friend/brother of yours, please tell him to grow up please! just hope he doesnt influence you!

2008-05-26T22:55:00.016+08:00

this post will be -all about BIRTHDAY- all my dear friends birthday!

firstly, 21st may, a sec sch friend of mine - ivy's birthday. she turns 20!

boyfriend and girlfriend.

dear sec sch friends! -every single one of you brighten up my day-

the five close friends.

the more we get together, together, together, the more we get to together, the merrier we'll be.

she's the one i loved to bully the most during old school.

she's the one that will be there for me no matter rain or shine.

she'e the one i would like to mention as she changed alot since old school.

secondly, 26th may, a surprise cum top secret birthday celebration for Private Bank's MD. he's the magician's brother. http://www.magicoflawrence.com/

lastly, we celebrated our beloved collegue clara's birthday earlier by aday as she's taking off on the 27th.
she's overjoyed. she cried.

the bouquet of flowers and a big birthday card made by us.

we planned for her birthday celebration. collect the flowers during lunch time, when she's back from lunch surprise her with our self-made-one-and-only card to her. den at 2:30pm, we have level28 receptionist to help us to give her a call to say there's secret someone gave you a bouquet of flowers. den at 4:30pm, surprise her with a mini kitty cake bought from Polar Puffs and Cakes. she's overjoyed and tears dropped down her cheek. aWwww........ our effort obviously didnt go to waste. all of us were happy!

i dont wanna leave, am still considering.

2008-05-22T19:55:00.015+08:00

1st May - 4th May, Thailand;Bangkok trip with Hubby to celebrate our 4th year. (:

having being together for 4years, this is our first holiday cum overseas trip together. i enjoyed myself to the fullest though there are conflicts here and there.

-pictures shall do the talking-

1st pic- Changi Airport at 7am, 2nd pic- on our way to terminal, 3rd pic- scenery, 4th pic- on the plane.

pictures of clouds and aeroplane wings. hehe.

the one pic which i like the most.
1st pic-arriving at Asia Hotel, 2nd pic- having tea while waiting for our room, 3rd pic- me lying on the bed of ours for 4days, 4th pic- the beautiful bed.

1st pic- at the train station on the way to MBK, 2nd pic- at mcdonalds' having our meal, 3rd pic- hubby and piggy, 4th pic- our ice-cream=delicious.

1st pic- on tuk tuk, 2nd pic- at pa pong, 3rd pic- streets of pa pong, 4th pic- waiting for cab back to hotel.

1st pic- next to central world, 2nd pic- on the bridge, 3rd and 4th pic- scenery.

2nd May, FIREWORKS!! by coincidence, we saw fireworks. so so beautiful. at first, i thought got people throw bomb. haha...

3rd may, 1st pic- hubby piggy, 2nd pic- singapore's yakult is very tiny and thailand's yakult is 600ml, drink whole bottle sure u shit till face turn green. (: 3rd and 4th pic- at A&W, super delicious. i missed A&W.

4th may, dined at Tivoli Restaurant. mine tomato spaggetti and hubby's mixed grill. lastly, our banana split. not that delicious but its satisfying.

lastly, of cos its hubby and piggy 4years on 3rd may 2008!

2008-05-11T11:42:00.009+08:00

warning: LONG entry....

sorry, didnt have the time to update since i touched down from bangkok to singapore on 4th may. after a day of rest on 5th may, den i am back for work. and kept practising magic for DBS 40th Anniversary(10th may). all 20 Roving Magicians only have 2weeks for practising and each week only 2days of practise with the instructors. we were all so excited and worried. but its FUN fun fun...

last night, was the actual day cum our performance. met amy to go to clarke quay for our make-over den waited for adrian to come and fetch us at centralworld. and in the car, my heart kept popping damn fast man. haha.. i kan chiong till i wanted to pee every now and then. =D i kept going to the toilet. but after 10mins of showing off the magic, i actually relax myself and blend in with the audience already. we only need to perform magic for 30mins den need to get change out of the uniform, and i actually dont feel like changing out cos its fun lar. (: have our group shot den off we went to the toilet.
picture of me Before and After den the night begin with 4000plus DBS Staff, first up was the speech by the new CEO den its the magic of Christopher Kwong(DBS Private Banking MD's son) and Priscilla Khong(DBS Private Banking MD's niece). their magic is really amazing. den next is all the performance by DBS staff and their kids. not forgetting lucky draw too. ended the night at 11pm.

the girls that went for make-over.

didnt regret being able to learn magic and attending DBS 40th Anniversary. i enjoyed myself.

Certificate of Paticipation. i graduated from Magic I.

next entry will be bangkok trip with hubby! (:

2008-04-27T14:14:00.007+08:00

yesh! i am a very happy girl now. i am flying!!! hahaha... i need to thanks hubby for everthing. he made my wishes all came true.

since last friday 18april, my fridays are occupied. (: this coming friday we are flying. flying to Bangkok. yeah! i am excited. its our first holiday! my wish came true!

2days ago(friday 25april), hubby brought me to board on DHL Balloon at bugis. its exciting. its scary too. the whole balloon is slanting to one side at the height of 150m equals to 40storeys high up. i kept shouting. the view is super nice but when you looked down, its bloody scary. my heart almost pop out lar. but afterall its very fun!!

this is the late afternoon view as hubby when over in the afternoon but i am still working. we board it at 7:30pm.

sorry for the blurry photos as i am shaking at the top. hahaha...

i am a happy girl!

*no unhappy rantings at this entry, whatever unhappy ranting i will blog in my next entry. there's so much things that made me disappointed at work.*

2008-04-21T18:09:00.002+08:00

today is the official date of my last paper and last day of school in PSB Academy.

there's something to make my headache now. whether or not i should re-module the subjects i failed? or just give up? ARGH!!! cos i actually need to re-module 3subjects which cost me 750bucks if my HR paper fail, den it will be total of 1000bucks for all 4subjects. so what should i do now?

i actually thought of giving up, and use the money to get a driving license. cos i wanted a license since a year ago.

hmm.. i shall consider again whether what i should do next. haiz. just hate studying lar.

hubby and me

2008-04-20T17:03:00.003+08:00

2008-04-19T18:32:00.004+08:00

reached the office at 10am den ended work at 3pm. off for our lunch nearby. we chat as we eat. so much to rant about. now that i know there's so much things happening in the office that i doesnt know. and jaslyn as a sister to me in the office told me everything which i am not suppose to know. she just want to me keep within the both of us and no third party in the office knows what she told me. (: its sometimes great to have someone u can click with to rant your personal things to her and maybe she can solve it for u too. actually i start to enjoy working in dbs but i still find it super tiring to wake up so early every week! *yawns*

hey! i board on sg flyer again on 18th april. at first, i kept on doesnt believe that hubby bought the tickets. till he came down to look for me at work and waiting for me in the cab and saw his camera and my camera! i was shock lar of cos. didnt know i have got a second chance boarding it within just a month ago. i think that the excitement is still there for me. maybe some of u may find it boring. but for me, i dont think so. thanks alot hubby!

and after our flight, we went to dine at Popeyes. yeah! i am a virgin to the restaurant till ytd i actually tasted it. hmm.. its better den kfc. but hubby think kfc is better leh. after all the food, we went for ice-cream at Gelatissimo and pictures taking. den off to go home by cab.

alighted the cab at sunplaza to do some things den walk home. during the walk home, hubby find that something was amiss. which is our photo taken at sg flyer, den i notice maybe its left in the cab. i actually got panick and i called comfort hotline and wanted them to track for me. hubby is those type that say hurtful words to me while i take actions lor. -i dont wanna say out what he actually said, but i just felt so hurt- and within 15mins, comfort lost & found called me back saying they managed to find the taxi driver. so i quickly call the driver to arranged for a timing to meet. and today, taxi driver went down to sls to pass to hubby lor. thanks alot to Comfort! this is my first time leaving behind things in a cab.

i enjoy myself alot yesterday with you. may our r/s be blooming every now and den. sorry for all my stubborn-ness and black face given to you. YES, i am Over-Sensitive and Over Jealous. looking forward to our 4th year anniversary and our Bangkok trip!

2008-04-16T12:13:00.003+08:00

visited the doctor yesterday during lunch time. and he gave me 2days MC. i am down with fever! the feeling simply sucks! have been running to and fro the toilet. tried drinking milo but it doesnt work. few days ago, severe headache struck me at work and now i am down with gastric flu. WTH?!! i am down with fever yet i doesnt feel anything at all till i visited the doctor.

told boss that i am having 2days MC. without any caring words from her but just said, "go home lor, go home lor." heard this from her, felt so hurt. i doesnt want to go home lar. i understand that we are short of manpower but this is not what i wanted. i dont want to fall sick at this time too. i kept thinking who would run errand when both me and xiaodi is not around? i am still worried bout work. i will be back soon. i know i am the VIP at work.

last friday, bought myself a camera. Casio Exilim S10. white in colour. yes, i love it! its very very beautiful when the promoter brought it out. when i stepped into the shop, promoter asked whether which camera i wanted, i said Sony T2. i had my hands-on. den he took out Fujifilm which i doesnt like at all. and he took out Casio Exilim S10, i fell in the with it when i ask whether is there white in colour. haha.. i insist on buying the Sony T2 but he said its not good. he said till i gave up on that camera lar. i love T2's green colour. awwwWw...... den he took out Fujifilm green, which i dislike it. so i am left with Casio and so, I bought it.

exactly 2weeks left for hubby and i to go Bangkok. *excited* (:

2008-04-08T21:20:00.002+08:00

brought my phone down to wisma atria-sony ericsson shop to repair my phone last friday. and my phone is back with me again today! i miss it alot man! and its working perfectly again. hope it doesnt give me anymore problems if not, i am going to trade in and change to another model! i hate it when my phone gave me problems cos i dont have extra phone with me. irritating!

this coming friday i am take MC, need to pluck out my 2nd wisdom tooth. its gonna be super duper pain! i am gonna cry again. hahaa... hubby is gonna go with me!! my mum is suppose to be there with me too! (:

yeah! i am going to bangkok on 1st of may till 4th of may! to spend our 4years anniversary over there. (:

2008-04-03T21:06:00.004+08:00

2nd april was team meeting + team dinner. dinner was at a restaurant in clarke quay, but i forgot bout the name. boss changed restaurant lar, actually was suppose to be at Riverside Indonesian Restaurant. yeah, and we had so much fun. slowly as time pass by, i am more closer to my team members and doesnt feel so left out already. "that's good for me". (:chatted about so much stuff as we eat. still Xiao Di is still the big joker. he and his ah gua-ish look. haha... his joker partner is so free to play the ah gua-ish role with him. we had a good laugh man. all our stomachs were damn cramp lar. laugh out loud as we eat. there's something that bring our mood down to point zero too. he is going for his studies and working morning shift with us only. and a colleague of ours is going to another team but we will still be in the same department. all of us will miss her man. boss cried! hmmm.......

er... actually my contract is gonna end this month but i extended it for another year. alittle bit regret. cos i wanna look for other jobs, feel so sian with this current job already. hehe.. i cant stay long in one job. should i go on job seeking again? (:

lastly, after two months plus of using it. my phone gave me problems! need to go down for service already. *sigh* and now, i am using nokia 7610! aRgHhhhhh......................

anyway, 3rd day of the month is hubby and piggy 3years11months.

2008-03-10T20:44:00.012+08:00

i have soooosooooo much to blog about but i am so sleepy everyday! ever since i start working office hours, my eyebag came out. lag of sleep and lag of THIS & THAT.

meet up with ling & her church friends at vivo in the noon after her church service. had our lunch and coffee session at starbucks den walked around and i bought a pair of Everlast slip-on. its really cheap, so i bought it and also feel like getting one quite long ago. hmm.. den head over to yishun to have my hair-cut at Alan & Guys. ling didnt planned to trim her hair but in the end she trimmed! dont know is being physco by me or what? haha.

and so, i went for an impulse hair cut on sunday! half year ago i cut short. half year later i cut even shorter. this time, i cut alittle BOB with CONCAVE. i love my hair-cut alot! its my first time for not regretting cutting my hair. (: went for this hair cut partly because my sis said my face is small and dont look nice with longer hair, and so i went to cuttttttttt it.

we are at the top.

on the way heading up.

time is 7:25pm. ~beautiful!

its so dark when it reached 7:40pm. -touching down-

blue lights around the Flyer.

do you people still remember i board on Singapor Flyer? on 7th march. i am so excited at first. kept pestering hubby and being excited from the begginning when we step out of the house. i told myself i want to take lots of pictures using my company camera as colleagues wanna see lar. so i took pictures from the entrance till the whole thing ends. till i reached home, wanted to upload it to the computer and the SHOCKEST shit thing happened! memory card got problem. its telling me to format the whole damn card! but i didnt want to! i begin to be very very emo lar! damn bloody disappointing! all the photos gone and 60plus office pictures is inside too. and i brought back to office to ask colleagues HOW? they said they cant help it. they gave me back the camera to see what i wanna do with it?! planned to go and do some stuff with the memory stick! and the clever me, only have afew pictures taken with my phone. I SHOULD have taken all the pictures using my phone! URGHhhhHH............ hubby took afew using his phone too. but we took all the scenery pics only! haiz...

these are all the pictures that hubby and i have.

last but not least, hubby and piggy.

2008-03-03T21:34:00.002+08:00

3rd march 08

hubby and piggy

3years 10months anniversary

nothing special. normal working days. hubby bought me Nintendo DS Browser! hehe.. HAPPY!! i can surf the net wherever there's wireless@SG. (:

7th march is getting closer! we are boarding the Singapore Flyer at 7pm! yeah! my wish came true! thanks hubby!! (:

2008-02-29T23:13:00.003+08:00

its 29th feb 2008! a date where is once every four year! we must really spend it fruitfully. did all of you also?
yesh! i spend it fruitfully with my colleagues. my boss booked a table at Suanthai Restaurant in Killiney Road, somersat. we settled our dinner there. and of cause jokes and laughters are all within the table. we have got a big JOKER with us too! hahaha... all 14 of us laugh throughout till stomach bloody pain lar. cos of the JOKER! (: didnt regret going too, though actually i have got something going on at 7pm lar. cancelled the appointment of cos. ):

dinner was on our team boss as well as cab fare too.

here's our aqua-ish big JOKER! he made our table to have the loudest laugh in the restaurant and the most happening group inside.

2008-02-24T19:17:00.002+08:00

i know i wont have the time and chance to blog again. cos i am super busy nowadays. packed with work and this coming tuesday will be school re-opening again! for now i have the chance and time to update abit, i shall not waste it.

saturdays and sundays are boring days for me. sometimes saturdays i still need to go back for work as my office is renovating lar. and i only got sundays to rest myself. since both days hubby is working and no one to accompany me. i shall sleep till late late every weekends and go and shop around alone and fetch hubby after work, sometimes.

hmm.. and on 7th march, hubby and i are going on Singapore Flyer! i have been waiting for it so long lar. finally i can go on board! haha... its just 12days more to go!

*school is back. i hope my lazyness went off.

2008-02-23T18:04:00.003+08:00

some updates about my life.

school
my last module is this coming tuesday. i shall not skip any lessons already. anyway, up till now i pass 1module only. i failed the rest. and all the re-exams date were over. i dont know how too. haven go back school to ask about it. shall go and ask this tuesday. hmm... due to my lazyness, i didnt put in alot of effort in school. i have been too into work recently. somemore we have got sure long holidays during CNY till the last module. so how now?

work
my contract will be ending in april. boss have been asking whether i want to extend my contract anot. i am yet to give her a reply. should i or should i not? jac,what's there to consider? just except it? 1)if i didnt extend den i will need to go for interviews again which i hate it alot. 2)everyone in the office encoraged me to extend my contract as they have very good impression of me. lolx.. 3)i did thought of extending my contract... aiya. also dont know what i am hesitating about lar. anyway, work was fine recently. i am isolated at that corner which is some sort of a receptionist position. at first, i love my counter but now i dislike it cos i am so lonely lar. seldom people come and talk to me. so bored! but no one forgets me! (:

friends
haven been catching up with friends recently. but on 15th feb, had a reunion dinner with afew sec sch friends and also "lao yu sheng". FUN! there will sure be another get-together at changi for dinner at friend's father's seafood stall. we had a great time together. friends are forever!

part of my life-hubby
you are the one for me. dont wanna lose you once more. i am treasuring every moment we have been together. and on 14th feb, it V'day. yeah! i know i am alittle too late, sorry cos have been too busy with work and lazy to update. on V'day, both of us took leave. head over to cwp to walked around and sp for dinner den to catch a movie-JUMPER den home sweet home. and in this 3years plus r/s, its his first time buying a diamond thing for me. its a diamond pendant from taka jewellery. actually he didnt planned it at all, just happened-to-pass-by. (:

that's all! bye!

2008-02-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

sorry for the lack of update!

anyway, i am using my phone to update my dead blog! hehe... its my first time and its so fun! wahahaha....

and i enjoyed myself lots catching up with sec sch friends. we had steamboat and -lao yu sheng- at angeline's place. *photos will be up if i got it*.

okay. till here! time for my sleep. as i am super sleepy cos i woke up at 8am to go back for work till 7pm! super duper tiring! byeee...

2008-02-10T12:03:00.000+08:00

always the same.. it’s probably my 19th year of celebrating it that's why.

and its Chinese New Year!

nothing much changes.

just slight change, reunion dinner was at my aunt house. drop by her house with my sis after my work. waited for 2hours for dinner to start. spend that 2hours disturbing small boy herman and being disturbed too!

after dinner, things that doesnt want it to happen, happened.

times up, time to go home.

Day 1.

am awake damn early at 9am. head down to grandma's house at 10plus. had our usual breakfast there. till noon 3pm, head down to aunt place for 2hours den to another place together. and day1 ended in like a blink of an eye. 0_0

Day 2.

nowhere to go. stayed home. parents were out individually. both sis were out too. left with bro and me. hubby came over. but we quarrelled. after all the shoutings at the corridor, we were back to normal. head down to sunplaza for Gelare and movie. back to his house at 11plus pm. and day2 ended.

Day 3.

hubby went back for work. and i went back home at 10plus am. house having lion dance. and relatives were here. those didnt thought they will come, came. hubby, derek and his wife arrived at 7plus pm. boring! spend my day playing dai dee and heart attack with relatives and sisters. left with hubby to his house. day3 ended.

first 3days of CNY went pass so quickly.
and today, hubby's is officially back for work and boring me at his room doing nothing but staying online till evening to go down to look for him.

tomorrow is back to work again. time flies! anyway, i am satisfied with work. being isolated as a receptionist now. everyone is envy in the position i am in now. i feel so honoured. hahaha.

2008-02-07T10:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE !
MAY YOU HAVE A PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR!

*I WILL BE BACK TO BLOG SOON.*

2008-01-28T20:24:00.000+08:00

yeah hoooo............! i bought the phone which i long wanted it! (:

felt so happy to have owned this phone-W960i.

love it alot man! finally i got it. cos have been waiting for my pay to arrived.

ytd went to bugis with sisjo to shop for cny clothes too. when she went home, i walked over to M1 and singtel to take a look at the phone and i bought it on the spot!

terminated my M1 line and signed for Singtel line as the phone is cheaper there!

den waited for hubby to arrive den we go over to mac for dinner. and i took out my Singtel simcard to change back to M1 card. the stupidest thing is we left after our meal to board the bus home. on the journey home, i wanted to transfer all my contacts over to my new line, den i notice that my Singtel simcard went missing! i panic like hell lar! quickly terminate my line first. haha.. the customer officer dont believe that i lost my card lar, cos i just signed for it. so funny lar!

den have to tell them to self-deliver to my office and give me. ARGHhh.. i am so careless lar. got new gadget den forget bout the small tiny simcard.

hmm... i bought this phone all by myself without a single cent from my parents. am so proud of myself. hahaha... does this shows that i can support myself already? NONO! as i still want to put braces after cny which my mum is gonna pay for me.

K810i is with me for like 4months plus only, its the first phone which i used it for the shortest period. and i trade in my K810i and i sacrifice alot! i lost almost all my pictures! its a big sacrifice man! cos its a last min thing that i want to buy hp ytd, that is why! haiz. but i am happy to have this new phone with me! (:

2008-01-24T23:01:00.000+08:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY! super busy this few weeks!
very pissed off with this temp guy in the office. i kept losing my temper when i have to ask him to help out to do some things. LIKE WTH lor?! say over 10times also he wont understand what u are trying to say. all of us got so fed-up and pissed off.

also today was the worst day for me man! it can actually be a one time job and can be done in 1day. but he gave all of us so much trouble. he mixed up all the new drawer keys which i need to seperate them in Duplicate and Master set! it became a triple job for me. already told them i can managed to finish it by 1day if i OT till 10pm. kaox! it became i have to OT 3days to finish it up! WTH?! its like damn tiring and sleepy lar.

cant leave him alone as i am the in-charge of all the drawer keys. if not, i sure go home on-the-dot 6:15pm lar. the story still goes on but am so lazy to elaborate. just know that i am damn pissed off with him. infact all of us are pissed off k!

anyway, i have to sleep now already! Night!

2008-01-20T12:03:00.000+08:00

the shock-est day of the year!

the room is painted redish-pink. its my sis decision actually. i dont mind at all as i am seldom at home! hmm... its pretty not bad. i actually love it! and its not my favourite colour actually. i still prefer green actually. (: pink is not my colour, i am not so girlish! hahaha.....

and the room is a nice place to take pictures now as its not too plain already. and our room door is gonna paint light pink too. its gonna be very pinkish!

just a few pictures of the room.

isn't is nice? its pretty pretty right? its really not bad though i am not a pink lover. but actually every girl's sure have alittle pink at heart and mind.

last but not least, a pic of me with the pink background!

i had my hair trimed on thursday. but not much diff lar, i know! its only alot more layer and thinner surface.

this post is so pinkish! its my very first time!

2008-01-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

ARGHH...........
i am sick like twice in the month of january!
its not a good start for me in 2008.
hope the later part of the year would be a better one!

and work seriously sucks today!
jaslyn-the-girl-who-thought-me-so-much-since-i-joined-DBS, she is on LEAVE!
adrian-the-cabinets-key-master, he is on LEAVE!
i really lie down flat when i reached home man. so tired!
i was like doing 5 ppls job lar. jas, adr, jen-my-in-charge, tina and my own job!
helping here and there. running up and down of 27, 28floor.
seriously its damn damn shack!
i am also very sick today,
bending down my head,
yellowish thingy came out from my nose.
cough and cough non-stop.
ITS KILLING ME!
everythings back. flu, cough, sorethroat, and slight fever!

there's still OT on saturday!
SUCKS!

2008-01-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

3days 3nights of not exchanging anything.

understand what i mean?

tml is gonna be a long and dreadful day for me again!

2008-01-12T17:05:00.000+08:00

happy 20th birthday to cat tham!

this two days have not been sleeping well. and today i still need to go back to the office for extra work. i am super tired! totally not in the mood to go back at all! what to do?! still need to go. actually told my in-charge that i am not going ler, but he want me to go as short of manpower lar. cos no one want to work on saturday. so bo bian lor. i sacrifice! (: boss leaving office at 2:30pm, so i went off with her. and i headed back home.

and friday was a long day for me. worked OT again to rush all the clients AngPaos. left office at 9pm and head back to hubby's house.

i said it was a long day for me cos somethingS happened! and so i gave attitude in the early morning and for the rest of the day.
thanks all colleagues for the concern and sorry bout my poor attitude. apologies!
nope! no one knows what happened at all! so please stop asking k!

anyway, i miss you.

2008-01-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

i have been lag in updates. awWWw... ):

cos i aint in the mood to update! as i have been working overtime in the office often nowadays. its tiring plus its damn sleepy lar. haiz. work for what? for the sake of money lor!

recently have been quite busy at work cos chinese new year is here soon. need to pack cards and hongbaos for the clients.

working till 11pm almost every night is not fun at all.
reporting to work at 8:30am is not fun too.

me having the very sleepy looks. looking at my group of collegues having sleepy faces. haiz...
but our hard work sure be seen by bosses! our hard work pays off!

but i must say, there's more fun at work already! i am enjoying. cos time passes real fast. i am sure in a blink of an eye, april is here soon for my contract to end! ):

2008-01-05T14:32:00.000+08:00

2days ago it was,

hubby & piggy

3years 8months!

and WHAT THE HELL?! i was sick that day, therefore went to see the doctor and took mc. den went back to my house with hubby to have a rest. and at 7:30pm, we went for movie-AvP2. hehe... you all must be thinking, sick still can watch movie ar?! hey! i am really sick okay! got fever of 38.5 and flu and cough and sorethroat. all came at one go lor! haiz... but now feeling better already. hmm... AvP2 is a very nice show! (:

my mc is only one day so i am back for work yesterday. guess what?! so many colleagues ask how come i didnt come for work? was is my last day? what happened to you? aiyo... one day nv come only den so many ppl miss me. hehe... feel so honoured! haha... and my boss said, "you are too famous already. everyone likes you. you are the best contract staff that we had! so you must come for work everyday." haha... what does this shows? will i become a permanent staff? hmm... time will tell.

hmm... yesterday after office hours, all temps and contract staff stayed back to dismantle the christmas tree. ARGH!!!! and i accidentally pushed the tree down, luckily i never hurt anyone. hahha... so funny sia. den all of us screamed! after awhile, all back to normal. to take down the deco and the light bulbs is not an easy job k! we took 2hours to finish everything and also to keep the tree. den hubby called to say he on the way home, told him to take cab down to fetch me. (: den home sweet home.

2008-01-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

Goodbye 2007! Welcome 2008!

2007 is not perfect for me. i had the worst family dispute ever! its not gonna be forgotten! i may forgive but not forget.

2007, 1st dec i got my first Bruan Buffel wallet from Dear Hubby. thanks alot hubby! i am contented. i appreciated. and i am super happy. i love you lots hubby! though i dont know what will our outcome be in 2008, but no matter what, may we have a smooth journey ahead of us.

2007, i had the best birthday celebration. for this i know who my true friends are! thanks alot friends for making my wish came true, my GELARE CAKE! though its not the design i wanted. but i am deeply appreciated!

i have say whatever i think i need to blog out already. my family, my hubby and my friends!

may my 2008 be filled with peace, prosperity and happiness.

2007-12-30T15:45:00.000+08:00

for today 30th dec 2007, i am the stupid-est and dumb-est jacinta!

time faster flies to 8pm. i am hungry. i am damn hungry.
i need hubby to buy me food.

i am dumb cause i dont know where i have thrown the house keys to.
i only remembered that i left it on the computer desk, but there's nowhere to be found!
its strange, really strange!

called hubby whether he got accidentally put it in his bag, but NO!
called jo for help too!

SHIT lar!

i bathe and got ready to go for my lunch. i searched for the keys but ARGHHH..... cant find.

2007-12-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

in 2 more days, its end of 2007
its 2008!

and i cant believe i am turning 20 next year. its a 2 at the front and no more 1 at the front of my age! ARGHHH....!! how time flies!

i am hoping for a better year, seriously!!!

2007-12-25T13:41:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

met up with ling and we head down to clarke quay for bout 2hours and took the train home after that. actually was suppose to be with amy for the countdown, but i am not very close with her friends and i dont wanna kanna the spraying foam. therefore ling met up with me.

24th dec christmas countdown, i was at clarke quay! its not that fun as i dont like the place. i bet i wont step into any club at all for the rest of my life! I SWEAR!! as i hate the environment damn lots! and its true, till now 19years of age, i didnt step into one before. we(ling, dee & ting) walked pass the stretch of clubs and pubs. ARGH! nightmare for me begin! hahaha.... HATE IT! that's not the environment for jac. but, i love the ambience of sitting infront of the sea! BEAUTIFUL~

and yesterday my department had a christmas party. yeah! it was fun Fun FUN!!! i received alot of presents and i won lucky draw and there's also alot alot of delicious food! hmm... as for yesterday, ever since morning i kept thinking whether who is the one that chose me to buy a gift for me. and i didnt expect that the one picked me is my in-charge. i am really lucky! cos her gift for me sure over limit! hahah.... and i got a fila polo tee from her. everyone said i was lucky. and its my luck! as everyone treats me so well in the office. (:

and i also received 40dollars takashimaya vochers. this is a lucky draw! all rush to the front to snatch an angbao den open it up to see your lucky number. hmm... all the gifts were damn expensive and the company is ok with it to sponsor. such generous cos its dbs! haha... during the "lucky lucky 6 draw", i picked on nothing but amy pick on a bottle of red wine! ARGH! i want! awwwWWww....... jealous. but its okay. i earn quite alot yesterday already. (:
i enjoyed myself alot this christmas. probably the best christmas! and its the first christmas that i received so much presents! i didnt regret working in dbs and knowing so many nice colleagues around me! i am contented.

ending with two pictures of me.

2007-12-16T11:44:00.000+08:00

its been a long long time since i last stepped in orchard road.

and so, last evening i went town with ling and teng. my very dear primary sch friends!

ling and me. i dont have a pic of me and teng, but she has it.

and orchard is beautiful with all the christmas decorations.

i only took one pic as i didnt bother to capture any.

couples are everywhere, i suppose this christmas i cant spend with hubby again.

last christmas he's in ns. this christmas he's working. ARGH!! life sucks!

as usual we went for shopping. but sadly we didnt buy anything for ourselves but we bought christmas presents for each other. ling suggest to walk seperate ways at takashimaya. den i agreed. haha... just right, teng called and said we are so lame. (: and we went seperate ways for bout an hour lar. 30mins passed by but i still cant find any suitable gifts for her. so i intended to walk further in and saw this towel quite cute and pretty, so i bought it. and btw, she gave me pooh towel on my birthday. i am like returning a towel to her. hahah...

the clock strikes 8pm, teng arrived. meet up with her and we went to wisma and to paragon and to lucky plaza and tangs is the last stop for us. i had my meal at mac. and rush to tangs for our toilet break. and in the toilet i suggest such a stupid act, to exchange presents in the toilet. haha... amazing right? yes its indeed!

after such long hours in town, i forgot about the timing and forget about my tiredness. we left town at 11pm. i miss hanging out with the both of you, may we meet again someday near christmas!! cos its going to be a lonely christmas for me as hubby is working. and i am having my off day. ARGH!!!!!!! dear friends, i am waiting for your call and sms to date me!

the sleepy and tired ME!

saturday is long long day for me. i was out for 16hours! since 8am to head to office for work, till 5pm. den head to town. i am super tired and sleepy lar. but i went through!

ARGH!!! i just heard about a tragic situation which i dont wish to know will happen but it happened. i am not sure if its true or not. just hope this matter will rest and all of you are fine! especially you!!

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my Sony Ericsson hp is out on sale.
i want to buy. but hubby dont allow.

i want to buy Sony Cybershot T2 (green) too.

but hubby dont allow.

i want so much things. ARGH!

no matter what, asap i am going to get my phone.

i can upgrade my line already so its sure to be cheaper.

as for the camera, i shall wait.

2007-12-12T21:49:00.000+08:00

i am getting tired of work already!

i want to resign from my job. i dont want to work!

but without job, i cant buy those things which i want!
how?

i hate to wake up so early for work!

i also feels like looking for another company!
wanna change environment, i am getting sick of this current one.

but i am so lazy to look for another job and go for interviews!

how how how?

everyday not enough sleep! ARGHHH!
and that makes my mood swings alot!
my mood is always low. and i admit that my temper sucks nowadays, too!
all because of not enough sleep!

i just hate working! money please drop from somewhere for me!

2007-12-08T11:20:00.000+08:00

before i could forget, or i should say, I DONT THINK I WILL EVER FORGET!

my colleagues being the sweety pie to celebrate my birthday i advance(30th nov) for me. i really got very shock! and i feel loved by them too. really very very happy. they gave me a surprise mini celebration.

bought a fruit cake for me. and by the way, i am only 17years old in the office. cause they took not enough candles so it became 17. haha.. they have got another big candle and they wanna put it in, i said NO! if not i will be 27. it will be older! i rather be younger den older right? haha.. aiya, anyway, i looks old with all the mature office ppl around me.

shared by 8girls plus 2guys. and seriously, i dont even know a single thing lar. they pass secret message around really very secretly! and, they ever bought presents for me. i received 3 gifts! my mummies there bought the clothe from C.O.A.X for me. which i wanted it so much. i went for shopping with lowell mummy and she says it doesnt suit me. and how i know i got it on my birthday! i am really very happy and that moment she kept forcing me to open the present. she makes my day! knows what i wanted. haha.. and i received a cushion too.

the two new collegues that came after me but they were the full-timers.

they kept saying, i am the first contract staff there that fulltimers celebrate my birthday for me. i really got so touched! they said i am lovable, friendly and always has a big smile on my face. they said this effects on me kept a deep impression on them so they remembered to make my day a happy one.

really a big thank you to all of you. i wont forget! it will be kept in me if ever i finish my contract at DBS. you are my dear ones! (:

ending a picture of me and my cake.

2007-12-03T15:25:00.000+08:00

i really enjoy myself alot on my birthday 2dec07. thanks alot dear friends! thanks so much for helping out. thanks so much for coming over to my place. thanks so much for all the presents. thanks so much for the lemon barley bath, which all of us kanna. its really a fun fun day. its been like such a long time since we last play till so wet and wild. and also thanks so much to all my friends who sms me, send comment to my friendster, gave a call, wished me in person! my dbs collegue is the first to sms me and is on the dot the clock strikes 12am! so so surprise that you all still remember me.

and i planned to have a mini bbq outside my house which is the lift area. i bought the bbq pit tray and KT is the one that came early to help me to start the fire. the pit seems pathetic but hope you all dont mind lar. i know its barget but i am enjoying it hope you all are too!

den 7pm most of my friends are here. and everyone lost their way to my place. alighted at the wrong bus stop den they dont even know which block they are stuck at. and i just told them to take a cab here lar. and they agreed. even the bbq delivery man lost his way here too, he kept calling me. at last he found.

while eating the cooked food by my mum and grandmother, the pit dont seems to be burning. den angeline and jiayi thought of going in to the kitchen to boil the hotdogs and fried the prawns. haha. so the pit is just left for bbqing the otak and satay. and guess what! i didnt eat a single satay at all. only ate alot of otaks. ARGHhhhh............. but nvm..

its resting time, and its photo session time too. went in the house to take pictures and me being sabo! my hair was all messed up by jiayi at first. den follow up by augusta den in the end all of them messed up my hair. i was not pissed off. and i shouldnt be! den suddenly without my notice, cos jiawei and cheehang wanted to take picture with me. den all the girls went to take tap water and standby outside. den angeline came in to ask me to go out and have some food, so i went. when i step out only, all attacked me! den all run till dont know where sia. haha... but nvm, they revenge is coming up very soon. haha..

nice shot, first!

this pic of me is really disgusting, so i made it smaller. the EVIL star!

all went crazy accept angeline. haha...

the very nice shot, finally!

den hubby arrived. had a picture with him. after bout 20mins, things happened which i dont want it to! haiz. and obviously my tears dropped immediately. and after all the comforting by friends and hubby. i became a totally different person.
den its time for cake cutting! and all the photo taking. and make a wish. and blow candles. and cut the cake. den teng and ling called, hubby answer the call. and down we went to fetch them. they alighted at the wrong bus stop too. walked to my house. den chatted with them for a lil while. and they have their food. and i got sabo. i forgot who is the one started the water war first. seriously i dont know. but no need guess i also know who lor. confirm is star and nette. haha... i was totally drenched! and i saw all my sec sch friends were very dry, i attacked them! angeline wore white shirt! haha... jia lat! hmm... and after all the plain water was used up, angeline took the whole bottle of lemon barley to pour on me. hahaha... and nette kept running away, i prepared a container full of ice and waited for her to appear. and she kanna all of it. wahahhha.... she feels cooling! woohooo...... and KT is the victim, when he came out of the lift, he kanna a cup of plain water filled with ice from me. really sorry! didnt mean to aim at you. cos esther actually run pass lar.

and after the water war, all prepared to go home. they pull me in the lift and push me like a ball in the lift. haha... and i dont know they took what transport home. most probably should be cab. (:

when all my sec sch friends left. its time for me to have my warm shower. teng and ling wanna take picture with me. i feel so refresh after the shower as i am too sticky after the lemon barley water war. hahaha.....

the crime scene and ME!

i know you didnt mean to.

i didnt blame you.

i know there will be plenty of time for us in future.

may we be the loving couple as always.
the lovey dovey as what ling and star said ytd to me in sms.

3rd dec.

its hubby piggy 3years 7months.

2007-12-02T10:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY

19TH

BIRTHDAY TO ME!

2007-11-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

saw esther at sun plaza while i was out of this fashion. and she's going to order my cake. (:

but sadly,

ARGHhh!! disappointing!

2weeks ago, esther said she's buying me my birthday cake and asked what's my dream cake. i said i want cake from GELARE. cake name A PERFECT GIFT. and she agreed to buy for me. i was overjoyed that day!

but today,

i didnt get the cake design which i wanted. so so sad! cos need to order 3 working days in advance. and today is thursday, i needed the cake on sunday. saturday sunday are off days for the gelare bakery. haiz.. the manager of the shop said there will be last batch of cakes coming in on friday. and i asked alot of questions lar, no matter what i still want that cake but afterall i still dont get it. so i just agreed to get another design. the SINFULLY CHOCOLATE. not the one i wanted but its the thought that counts afterall! thanks so much esther. the cake is not cheap, its even expensive then swensens ice-cream cake. really thanks alot! i appreciated!

i wanted this.

but on 2nd dec, i am having this. ):

2007-11-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

amy is giving me a very big surprise!
yeah! she called and told me that she went to a shop to hand chose some pooh accessories to made up a pooh bear for me! Hand-Made pooh bear and its one and only. only jacinta has it! wahahaha...

awaiting for my surprise present from sec sch friend. and i have already know what they bought for me. cos they asked what i wanted and they bought it on the spot!

yeah! and ESTHER bought my dream cake for me! from GELARE! i hope the cake wont disappoint me as i nv eat it before. i just love the cake designs so so much! am so excited! (:

sunday 2nd dec is reaching soon! dear dear friends!

2007-11-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

braun buffel 120th anniversary edition.

which design is nicer?

i will prefer the Burgundy colour rather den the orange one.
i am gonna get it on my first pay!

tell me which design is nicer!

yesh! and i wanna own a Tiffany & Co. necklace! its pretty pretty.

*hint hint* on my birthday! hehehe..... :p

2007-11-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

pictures are up on my team boss birthday celebration.

the super cute cake we bought for boss and look so much like her just short of a pair of specs.

the cake cost us 60bucks. we bought boss a necklace and a birthday card. and the cake is from Angie the Choice! its super delicious!

i look ugly in the picture.

needless to say, i am the youngest in the team. this is my team member with two other guys.

him

and him.

my team consist of 13 people. 2guys, 11girls. all of them treat me damn well. and i enjoyed myself alot. i am happy that i am more den a contract staff to them. i am sure i will miss all of them when my contract ends.

2007-11-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

me: i opening bdae party. free?
friends: sure, confirm come no matter what.
bf: see first lor.

me: my mum wants you to come.
bf: see how lor.
me: waiting for you to cut cake.
bf: see how lar.
me: take a cab straight to my house after work.
bf: see how lor.
me: i want surprises.
bf: 3rd dec i take off mah. that day den buy for piggy.
me: gave a fuck up face immediately and dont feel like replying him a single word.

which girl would'nt like surprises? tell me now and straight to my face!

i am deeply hurt!
i know 3rd dec u are celebrating our anni cum my bdae, but i would still want a lil surprise on my bdae. what is see how lor?

hubby is still the one i want to call out when i need you there for me!
if even my bdae you cant make me feel on top of the world, den i must really say, friends are still there to make me feel on top of the world!

2007-11-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

HOW TIME FLIES!
tml its wednesday. a week is gonna flew pass again.

tml is my team boss birthday. we surprise her with cake and present from our team. she got a very shock face. and the cake we ordered is so much like her! haha. pictures will be up when i received from my collegue. and our departments' boss took few days mc as she fell off her home staircase. poor thing! get well soon boss!

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in 2weeks time its my big day!
my mum agreed to open party at home.
LISTEN UP DEAR FRIENDS!
Date: 2nd dec 2007
Time: 4pm till 10pm
Venue: Jacinta's Place. (call me for directions)
Confirm your attendance with me asap by 28th nov.
thanks alot.
no matter how many of you are coming, i will still open this party.
appreciated if you all are here!
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hmm.. i skipped lesson today! i am being playful and wasting money! just simply so lazy to go for lesson after work already. i will try to drag myself for lesson this thursday.
work for me is super fine! and fun too! i am getting used to the environment and collegues around me. they are a bunch of sweeties that doesnt failed to make me smile. forget all the sorrows and bring in laughters.
my relationship is going on fine too. i am more independent den usual. but still i wanna take a look at you before i sleep hubby. cant peek at you but you said i can smell smell you! early in the morning i am off for work, you are still sound asleep, while you are back home, i am almost going to end my day to sleep. how sad is that?!

an office lady with a sales person in love!

2007-11-16T21:22:00.000+08:00

WTH?!
an uncle actually took my picture in the train!

a girl alerted me in mrt. told her i already noticed him already.
really dont wanna talk much about this topic!

i dont feel at ease whole day at work.

its really not the first time.
2years back, when i was working as a flyer distributor at novena square,
a idiotic boy just stand infront of me and took a pic of me lor.
i burst into tears straight away.

i almost cried in the morning. called for hubby but his phone is switched off!
no one is there for me!

2007-11-11T10:53:00.000+08:00

my long weekend is soon to be over. time flies!

its work again, tomorrow.

and yesterday, its esther's birthday. meet up with nette, ivy and jiayi at sun plaza and we had sakae sushi. den a cake brought in by the sakae stuff bought by us. and signal us to sing birthday song. aWwwww............. so sweet to have some others bringing in the cake! and the guy that brought in the cake, esther says he's shuai-ge.

hahaha...... after finishing the cake, went over to Gelare for dessert. birthday treat, 1for1 ice-cream sundaes. chatted as we were eating. till 6:30pm, left to esther's house with nette.

7pm took the bus to bugis to wait for hubby to finish work. also to go there to help hubby and his friend to buy stuffs from the shop at "special price". off to bugis street and bought myself a belt den home sweet home. had dinner at 313 den back home to sleep.

cam-whoring at gelare.

this looks scary. i got a shock when i turn the phone to look at it.

in the lift, going for dinner with hubby few days ago.

2007-11-08T14:24:00.000+08:00

8th november. wishing my security guard friend at DBS building a Happy Deepavali. (: anyway, he cant see this also.

i will have a long weekend this week! yeah! friday i took leave! am going out with hubby, derek & his wife to Singapore Import Night at Expo.

hey! yesterday is the most shocking day of my life man. i start trembling when the moment i need to go to the ______ and back to the ______. and waiting for my turn to go in, my _____ ____ damn ____ lar! i am super duper scare sia. hubby is with me. i dont think he's ____ _____ lar. he just feel so ____ lor! kaox! till, its time for me to go ___ and _____ my ______, my ______ stop _______. hahaha.... but luckily, the ______ is _______.
WHEW!!! everythings fine!

friday afternoon is my marketing exam. i haven even study a single shit! preparing to fail again.

2007-11-03T10:24:00.000+08:00

3rd November.

HAPPY 3YEARS 6MONTHS TO

HUBBY & PIGGY

we seen the phrases of life together.
from N'level,
to our career,
to me taking up certs,
to your NS,
and to us having our career now.

from a student to an adult.
we indeed see each other grew and we will sure see each other grow more more and more.

no matter what happens in future, remember that we both are once together and having a great relationship. bad memories are to be forgotton as we did have alot of happy times together too. i hope for a future.

i thank you for everything Hubby.

2007-10-28T11:03:00.000+08:00

its been four days since i last updated my blog. its gonna rot soon. as i am too lazy to update it. but i am gonna update about friday and saturday. (:

26th oct

hubby and derek came to fetch me from work. derek drove my dad's car. den we headed to chinatown to tie the ribbons on the car as the next day its his wedding. yeah! and i have the before and after pictures. but find it not much diffierence afterall.

the view from derek's house.

the bouquet of flowers i first held! before the bride could hold it the next day.

the wedding car i first to sat! hehe.

hubby and derek said it.

27th oct 2007
is derek's wedding.
the actual day came. his wedding dinner.
kt, hubby and me, we were the very first to reached the restaurant. its only like 6:45pm lar. went to the reception to have our word of blessings to the couple on the book. den off we went to enjoy the air-cond. slowly as time flies, people strolling in. everyone settled down by 8:30pm, and the dinner started. music of love played. bride and groom strolled in and up to the stage. to cut the 3 storey high wedding cake. (: den off to their sits to have the food. after 3dishes, bride and groom went out to have the second part started. strolled in and up to the stage to "kai xiang bin" den he point to our table first to ask brothers and i am the sister to go up. yeah! and the 3 of us went up to YUMMM SENGGG...... haha. so fun! its my first time sia. had the 3cheers den drank all down den back to our sits. and its cam-whoring after that.

its us with the groom.

hubby and piggy.

kengteng and me.

after the phototaking, derek got a bad bad "sabo" from his friends. and that drink is super disgusting. its has got, tiger beer, orange juice, sprite, martell, ate before chilli sauce and a square thingy i dont know what izzit too. and he have to drink it all down. his friends challenge with him. if he drink the disgusting drink down den his friend will gobbler the jug of tiger beer down. and they did. eeeyer......................

the left over. derek actually left this on our table.

after like 10-15mins, he's drunk. cant balance while he's walking. poor thing.
afterall its wedding lar, sure will get sabotage. :P its a once in a lifetime thing.

er... till 10:45pm, time to go home. bride and groom went out to shake hand with all and we people congrats them. he thank me for putting in so much effort to borrow my dad's car for him. he thank me for like so many times. at his house for the buffet and at the wedding dinner and also numerous times when we were on phone talking about the car and thank me for all the trouble that he have make. he hugged me and also hugged his brothers. and said like "you are the best brothers of mine" and said to me " jac thank you, dont have the car i also dont know how" (: hmm.... its okay lar, afterall i did my part as a friend/sister to you and i feel happy that someone appreciated my act.

den we took the cab home.

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its not my first time to attend wedding dinner. but its my first time to attend a friend's wedding dinner. (:

2007-10-23T07:27:00.000+08:00

i hope you can realise from now on how to treasure jacinta.

by ling.

2007-10-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

please dont hide anything from me.
i have got 100% full of trust in you.
please tell me the truth of everthing.
i will slowly except the fact though its really difficult.
please!

i am just simply very fed up with what happened ytd.
what is dont want?
when at first you willingly said you will.
i know i am at fault when i hang up your call,
but do you understand my feelings.
what if you were in my shoes?
if i do the same thing to you,
how would you feel?

why are you avoiding my call if you think you never do anything wrong?
you are just pushing all the blame to me now.
it should be me not answering your calls or reply your sms.

i have put in so much effort in this r/s,
but why do i received this type of treatment?
i know you doesnt make any first move,
so i always put in my effort to make mine.

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i just feel so hurt inside.
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action speak louder den words.
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couples out there:
treasure the moment,
because you cant go back to the past,
life doesnt give you another chance.

especially to augusta,
you are back with him. the one that hurt you so much on your birthday few years back. do cherish him. i wish you all the best in your r/s with him again!

2007-10-17T20:41:00.000+08:00

OMG!
i am super duper happy today. i am saying whole of today okay.
cos i received a message from my course mate telling me
I PASS MY MARKETING PROJECT.
although its not very good marks but for me i think its better den fail right?
i am satisfied already.
at least i dont need to put in so much effort in my exam paper in nov. (:
yeah! i am really very very happy, seriously overjoyed.
i chatted with amy half-way while i received the sms, and i jumped lar!
its really WOW lar!
a colleague saw my project and say i sure fail,
den that makes my confidence level dropped.
i also know that i didnt did that well,
and its really a last minute project for me cause i seriously am so lazy,
and i did not put in so much hope too.
but now, i passed! HEHEE....

so dear colleague, dont judge the book by its cover!
meaning, dont ever judge me from the outside.

2007-10-16T21:26:00.001+08:00

today is officially my last day at DBS Bank LTD! yeah!

hahahaha.... like real ar!
my last day is half year later man.

its because my supervisor bring me over to contract staff. i am happy for that cause i have got pay adjustment. yeah! but sad thing for me, i have to wake up as early as 6plus in the morning everyday. i feel so tired lar. but what to do?! its me who wanted an OL job. its me who likes OL job. anyway, i am sure i will get used to it as time goes by.
really cant believe that, 3months of temp position just flew past in a blink of an eye. TIME FLIES!
what can i say bout my job in a bank? hmm... i really enjoyed working there. really enjoyed the accompaniment of my collegues. enjoyed those nice nice tibits too. love talking to DHL Lady on the phone as she kept saying i am cute, she so wanted to see me in person but we didnt have the chance to. love talking to ALLIANCE Courier Lady to kill time, said my voice is sweet and i am cute. hahahaha... LIKE REAL lar. i am so rough lor. love going to DBS Branch as the Counter girl loves to see me. she really sounds very LES in-person. er.... you see me talking about all DHL, ALLIANCE and going to the Branch, is because i am a General Admin Stuff. everything also do. doing all the mails for collegues and helping own department staff sometimes. other den cleaning the toilet lar! (: and i really enjoy myself alot alot!

its gonna be another half year in DBS Bank LTD. (:

2007-10-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

yeah! i know i aint updating this one week, as hubby's computer is down. he just had it fixed 2days ago. and i miss using com and updating my blog. i am back now!

for the past 7days of not using com, my hotmail is flooded with 90mails. its like CRAZZZY lar. its my first time lar. and i miss reading friends blog, friend friends blog, and dont famous blogger blogs. heex........

and last friday was suppose to go for steamboat with ling they all. but end up i didnt wanna go, and amy went ahead with them. as its hubby's off day on friday. i wanna company him. haiz... as the saying goes, he's working retail hours, i am working office hours. so do you all understand? so dont ask me out on every friday! haha.. i am serious!

its sunday! and guess what?! my temp position in DBS is ending soon. VERY SOON, on 16th oct! so i just wait and see if jenn is gonna sign me as contract staff. if not, den its time for me to look for a new job again.

hmmm.... i love admin jobs! i have got so much fun working at dbs bank. as i said before, my collegues are are lovable, caring bunch of people. i will miss working around with them when its my last day. i am overjoyed when jenn told/shown me the email she received saying all of the staff loves me and i am so sweet looking. and such a hardworking staff! so hope that jenn will have me as a contract staff. (:

er... i have got my pay. and i am going bugis to shop alone and wait for hubby to finish work at 8pm. shopping alone is fun k. i enjoy shopping alone.

as for now, i am gonna go for my lunch first.

and just a few pictures of me. its been a long time since i last camwhore. p:

cya.. (:

2007-09-27T11:26:00.000+08:00

jacinta is falling sick.

sorethroat,

flu,

coughing,

fever soon.

because of all this symtoms, i took a day off my work today. and my money went to the drain. haha. SHIT lar! i am super boring at hubby's house. cos he went for work. i feel like going to find him den at the same time go and shop around. should i? haha. afraid i might faint halfway!

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everythings settled at kelly services on tuesday. i am super pissed off with the staff there. and this really kind staff helped me solved my problem. thanks so much to her! and i am not gonna eleborate further. over means over. thanks amy for companying me there during our lunch break. actually gonna settle our meals at BK but end up we settled at kelly services. our break is like 1hr only lar but we spend 1hr40mins there. didnt got scolded but its bad impression lar. luckily my supervisor is a kind woman. (:

1st october is nearing. my basic theory for the 3rd time. i really wanna see a passed. but yet i haven start studying. ARGH.....

i am so super busy with work for the last two weeks, cos my collegue got chicken poks. she is back now and i am super relax, every staffs told me that. haha.

hmm.. heard from amy that a primary school friend of ours got married to a 27 year old guy and got a baby boy turning 1year old.

and hearing from friends that their having trouble with relationships. breaking ups, quarrels, cold war and etc... relationships are bound to have problems, its just that whether you know how to settle it, you know how to face it anot. i do feel upset for my friends and at the same time thinking about my own relationship. i love hubby alot. i really need a caring boyfriend at the stage i am at now with my family. i really think hubby is the right guy for me. but what is his thinking of me right now after 3years? i wanna know.

2007-09-22T19:38:00.000+08:00

i feel super lonely and super bored during the weekends. no one is free to go out with me. as for hubby, he's working in the weekends. i feel so lonely. so i planned to go to chongpang to alter my black pants for work. and went to mac for my lunch. and i seriously cant believed that i ate one filet burger meal and a 6piece nuggets. cos i used the coupon and the nuggets is free. and after the meal i still find myself feeling hungry. what is wrong with me sia? (: did my appetite became big? haha.

and i am super stress nowadays. i did thought of giving up my course. but so many friends encourage me not to cos there's two more modules only. very fast over de. but i cant cope with it at all. as i am working now and i cant really concentrate at school. and i feel so tired after work and i just drag myself for school after that. and now for this module, there's individual project to be done. die liao lor. i dont have the time and mood to do. how how how?!

another 21 working days and i will be ending my temp bank position.

will they still want me?

will they sign me on for contract position?

waiting waiting waiting for her answer.

i hope so, or, i doubt so?

ARGHHH!!!

i have got my DS Lite for 3months. and i think i am abandoning my DS Lite. i dont play it often already. but i am definately not selling it. its one of a gift that hubby bought for me. and i do treasure it so so dearly. i do play with it before i go to bed every night. but not so much cos i am so busy and tired after a day of work.

my DS Lite for 3months. its my baby! Pooh&Tigger~

i bought it. i fall in love with it the moment i saw it at minitoon.

zhi yao xiao yi xiao, mei zen me shi qing guo bu liao!(:

2007-09-17T20:07:00.000+08:00

we are both out at the working environment.
cant see each other every min, sec or what.

no matter what, i must have the trust in you.
but i just feel worried.
or i am just thinking too much already.

what if you turn your back at me.

for me, i dont think its easy for me to let go
as its 3years plus nearing 4years.
but for you, i am not sure its easy for you anot.

no matter what,
its a test for the both of us.

loving you hubby!

2007-09-16T10:29:00.000+08:00

on saturday which is 15th september. huiling and i finally meet up. and its like after dont know how many months lar. seriously, i miss her damn lots. we only had dinner at kfc and chit-chat. both of us is like damn damn busy already. and our timing to meet up is always clashed! didnt spend much time yesterday though. but am sure that we will meet up again for a longer time.

pissing me off.

i am damn damn pissed off with Kelly Services NOW! what shit? GET PAID on time, everytime. wah lau! my pay is always delayed though i mail it to them ON TIME! if i dont call to check bout my cheque, den they will not mail it to my house. its like WTF lar?! means, i have to call them very week lar. and the receptionist still say, cause u never call us so we dont know what to do bout your cheque. wah lau! i already wrote there, MAIL TO MY HOUSE! are you blind or what.

ARGH!!! saturdays sundays are boring for me. no one companying me. friends please ask me out on this two days. as i will be super duper lonely. cos hubby is working retail hours. work 6days and 1day off. so his off days is not standard like me. whereas, i am working office hours. so duper lonely lar. luckily todays, meeting amy for seoul garden and going chongpang alone to alter my black pants.

i dont wanna feel lonely. making myself busy, trying to.

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this boy boy is very cute. i secretly capture his picture. i was at a bank sitting infront of a counter and he's sitting beside me. as he's one of the customer's grandson.

he cant finish his tibits and he wanna tie it with rubber band, but he failed and the rubber band dropped on the floor and he is trying to pick it up.

the counter girl asking him if he needed help to tie the tibits, and he said "okay, can you help me to tie?"

he saw his grandma walking out of the safe deposit room and he said,"MA MA". aWwww... so cute.

2007-09-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

i have got good news and bad news to blog about. (: ):

the good news first.
hubby is a free-men now. he's officially ORD. (: and he found a job. and he's starting work so soon. which is tomorrow. 12th sept. he got a job, felt happy and at the same time disappointed too. cos i am working office hours, he's working retail hours. so sucks! but whatever it is, our relationship is gonna be strong.

and den the bad news.
er... i went over to kelly services to collect my cheque today, which is told by my consultant there when i called him. and i am damn angry with the person that attended to me. and i think she is sick of me too. but who cares. my cheque got delayed for so long. one thing is i send out late. but i estimated and round today i will get it. but still i haven! i got fed up and vent my anger at the agency. and before that, the person attended to me told me shit stuff too! and i have to wait till like friday lah!

working like everyday. its boring. super no life. so sleepy everyday. waking up so damn early. have got not enough sleep at all. damn no mood early morning. dont piss me off in the morning. let me have a cup of tea and a packet of biscuit and it will make my day a beautiful one. monday to friday work is up and down. happy and sad. good and bad. diffierent mission to accomplish everyday. everyday is a challenging day for me. supervisor's mood is up and down. must not irritate her in anyway, if not die like hell.
i love my job. but i am ending next month. and let's see if they put me to contract. but if put me to contract, i dont wanna do the same thing again. if not, den i wont sign contract. and a temp staff, working this job scope is okay. but for contract, i dont think so. (:

2007-09-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i simply dont understand you, at all.

felt so disappointed.

2007-09-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

yeah!
super duper happy!
i have got my pay.
but its not enough for me.
need to clear debts and give mum.
sianx.
and also saving it for near future. (:

i am happy with life. i wanna go holiday with hubby. i am gonna start saving now, and hope its not too late. and hubby is starting work very soon. all the best to him. (and i am sure our r/s is not gonna get worst. <-hoping.)

6th september. my 2nd module exam day. SHIT! no need to predict also know i sure fail this module. cos i never really revise at all. and i am prepared for the results. (: this module i am not gonna made it. not gonna submit a totally blank piece but will try my best to fill in somethings.

friday and saturday i am working OT. i am making up cos mon and tues i am on MC. (:

2007-09-02T13:31:00.000+08:00

my childhood days/teenage days are nothing that i am going to feel proud of.
except for the friends that are there and dear hubby that was there.

i am going to survive on my own now. without any help from you parents! i SWEAR!
if there's one day hubby is leaving me, i SWEAR i will support/survive myself.

words left unsaid.

2007-08-30T21:44:00.000+08:00

i am pretty tired this few days. work are piling up on my desk. everyday is a tiring and very sleepy day for me. since i start working, i dont have enough sleep already. but i do enjoy working, cause collegues are friendly. (: easy to get along with. and time flies while i am at work. and i need money. i need to settle alot of debts now. and also start having some savings already. cause i want to go on holiday with hubby!

and work do sucks sometimes. and i dont wanna elaborate any further. cos i am really freak out already. and i am not the type which is not understanding. its not that i dont understand your situation. i know you are in difficult position also. and i didnt blame you. but i feel so freak out lar. i tried my best helping you, but you said i am saying bad things infront of "her". which i didnt lar. please dont accuse me in the things which i didnt do. and dont say i am into her "spell" or what k. I AM NOT! cause i think you are irresponsible too. i am really sorry to say you that but..... aiya.. i also dont know lar. i only know i am black-listed already lor. and from now on, if i have any good offers in jobs, i wont intro anyone. i will be very selfish in this now!! i dont want to be black-listed everywhere lar. damn freak off and spoil my mood. get scolded for nothing lor. WHAT THE HELL?! i know i am being sarcastic, but that's me!

my 2nd module exam is round the corner! 6th of september. and i didnt study at all. and i am prepare for the worst.

ending with picture of me. (:

2007-08-28T19:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR FRIEND, INESSABELLE LEE!!!

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ARGH!!! i am super tired. super sleepy. just feel like falling asleep everytime when i am at work. just feel like dropping down on my office desk. i feel so-dont-know-what-feeling whenever i need to wake up super early for work. its no difference when i am going to school few years ago. the feeling is super sian lar. now i know why all my collegue's temper is so bad in the early morning. my temper is not good in the morning too. just banging everything on my desk. the feeling really sucks. need to warm up first whenever i reached the office. a cup of milo and bread or biscuits will cool me down. its true! its my habit to have that already.

a primary school friend of mine joined me at work. she's under contract for 6months. really didnt expect her to accept this offer from me. and in minutes she accepted and feeling so bloody happy?! haha. and my supervisor is happy too. and she actually asked me to join my friend cos the pay is higher and she is touched that i found a girl for her in minutes. hehe. i do feel happy too. hopefully she change me to perm after my contract. (:

i am waiting for my pay! its arriving soon. so happy! but...... i am saving it. and give mum and return cattham my debt to her.

finally, my bank is going to have money inside. yeah!

2007-08-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

i have not been blogging nowadays. so sorry! cos i am so busy with my new job recently.

everyday is a fucking fucked up day for me.
i bought a new pair of heels for work, and it sucks totally! i am so frustrated with my shoes. i just feel like crying everyday! my feet is really freaking painful. i had so many plasters on it on my second day of work. and i can hardly work properly lar. somemore i need to go up and down of the building. WTF?! when can it recover man?! damn damn pissed off.

as for my job, its going pretty well. start adapting to the job already. but the tiring part is after my lunch. alot of work to do. and time flies after my lunch too. (: still there's one particular thing which i still cant adapt, which is my sleeping hours. i am so sleepy everyday! cos when i dont have a job, i slept in the midnight and wakes up very late. and now i have a job, i cant get to sleep at all lar. only midnight den manage to fall asleep. though i went to bed at 10pm. and i only had like 4-5hours sleep den i need to wake up already. den i will be like wanting to sleep while working lar. i really dont know how. it needs time for me to adapt.

i will be a busy girl starting from now. alot of things to remember. cos i am working. at the same time, i am studying too. and i am having my driving test also.
i am starting to abandon my schoolwork already. cos i feel so tired after a day of work and still go to school after that. and i really dont know how. haiz. went to school on tuesday and i went off during break time. cos i actually fell asleep in class. and for this module, next tuesday will be my last lesson. and on the following week on thursday will be my exam. ARGH! i doubt i am going to pass. and i know i will SURE fail. cos from the very first lesson till now, i dont understand a single thing at all! i know my brain is small and it cant store alot of things in it. and i thought i can cope with work and school. but actually I CANT! i just over estimated myself!

recently i get frustrated and pissed off easily. i dont know why. and i get pissed off with hubby easily. like WTF lar. what is happening to me? and what the hell is happening to you recently too? why you dont repeat your words whenever i didnt listen properly. why why why? what is happening. whenever u repeat, you get so pissed off for what. i really dont understand what is happening recently. i really dont know why this is happening. and i hope our r/s wont go down the drain when i am working and when you start working too. anything please dont hide from me and please for goodness sake tell me the truth!

okay. i am ending here already. need to sleep. cos i am working on a saturday to rush my work for hand-up.

*praying hard for my feet to get well asap lar! so difficult to walk lar! so so so damn fucking painful!!!! ARGHHHHH................

2007-08-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

today is not my day. today is a disastrous day for me. i find myself so suay today. its the suay-est day of my life man.

1. i am super blur.
2. my slipper spoiled.
3. i had a cut on my finger.

early morning, i meet jiayi at the station of train's first cabin. and guess what? i actually thought i am boarding the train at sembawang and she is at admiralty. so i message her to say "when you are about to reach sembawang den miss call me so i know when to board the train. and she replied "why? where you taking de? i was like OMG! it should be the other way round. i am at admiralty and when i reach sembawang den i miss call her. haha. i am damn blur lar. cant be blame? cos its early morning and i only had 5hours of sleep.
when we reached the office and i sat down on my desk, i find that my slipper is alittle weird. so i take alook at it. OH NO! the bottom piece is half opened. and its only 9:30am. just 1hr after i reached the office. i still have a long day before i go home. how to survive? but still, went for my lunch and den walked to shenton way and back to office. my slipper is already half dead by den. and i just sat down and didnt want to walk already. was damn busy through out till 5:50pm. 30mins more to go home. den walked to the station with jiayi, and we need to take the stairs. ARGH! the bottom piece came off! i am still stuck at raffles! i so feel like crying man. when i reached admiralty, the slippers cant survive anymore. i called my sis to bring another pair for me. i feel so shameful! so pai seh.
i was doing paper work on my desk. and i am happily folding and putting it in the envelop. i folded not even half way of my stack of papers, den i cut myself. its paper-cut! its damn painful. but its not alot of blood. and i pretend there's nothing happened to me. i just continue folding. till i cant tahan, den i told my staff pass to go to the toilet and wash. so painful.

why am i so blur today?
ans: cos i only had 5hours of sleep bahx.
why am i so suay that my slipper my spoil today?
ans: i really dont know why. why cant it spoil other days?
why i had paper-cutting my finger?
ans: haiz.

the happy things at work.
-an ang mo smiled at me 2times when i was at shenton way Bank. and my colleague actually said he is very handsome. haha. i dreamt of getting in a relationship with an angmo but i know i dont have the ability. but have an ang mo friend is still fun.
-i have got so many treats at work by colleagues. my client actually said "wah! first day of work so many treats already. happy right? hehe. i smile back and said yes, its indeed happy. and looking forward to working.
-my department is full easy-going staff. whereas jiayi's department is quite strict in work. and i love easy-going staff cos i wont find difficulty talking to them.

afterall, work is alright for me. thanks to angeline for introduing. looking forward to the challenges at work.

2007-08-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

its the first day of hungry ghost festival. and jac is so scare. for this month i will reach home in the evening before the sky is dark. i dont wanna take the lift alone. yes, for this month only! haha. cos i am scare.

nowadays i have been thinking so much about my love life, my friendship. i think everything just went hay-wire. YES! ITS EVERYTHING! i thought so much about hubby and i. i am afraid of so much things. i have been thinking too far already. having too much unwanted thoughts in my mind. i dont know why i thought so much. maybe its just because i am over afraid about some things? haha... or maybe i watched too much drama shows already? ):

about my friendship. hmm.. recently having misunderstanding with 10years buddy. as the saying goes -hope everything goes back to its track- really hope so. but i doubt so. ARGH!!! i really dont know how can i start the conversation with you again. i seldom make my first move. but when you make the effort to call me, its not that i dont wanna answer. er.. i dont know how to have things goes well but just hope things gets better.

i am left in the dark.

2007-08-12T12:48:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a long day for me. and i did enjoy myself alot too. met up with afew of my secondary school friends for movie and dinner. hmm.. the girls have not been seeing the guys for like 2-3years already, since we graduated. awww.... they really changed so so much lar. we were like so damn shocked. haha. we headed down to The Cathay for movie-Secret by Jay Chou. OMG!! the show is fantastic man. its really damn sweet lar. how i wish my boyfriend would be like jay. haha. but still, i will treasure every moment with my HUBBY.
and after our movie, we walked down to cineleisure to meet up with augusta for dinner. the boys kept totally quiet when they saw star lar. and i dont know why. so i was like saying "hey! what happen? talk leh. why all keep quiet?" haha. and the boys did start talking. and i feel so paiseh lar. hmm.. we headed to NYDC at heeren for our dinner. i had hawaiian bake rice, its damn delicious but with too much cheese. (:
after dinner, planned to go sing K-ster but i got no money and with alot of reasons cos the girls dont wanna go but afraid one boy would be angry. so we somehow say alot of excuse. and we went for pool at parklane instead. played for 2hours and the girls headed home. the boys went for supper. the girls were too tired and we took the cab back.
den off to hubby's house and bought food for him. its 12:30am already. i think its his breakfast lar. cos he woke up at only 7pm.
hmm.. i was too tired already. after playing with my DS for a lil while den i went to bed already.

*no pictures taken as i dont know why too. (:

2007-08-07T17:05:00.000+08:00

i am really revising on my schoolwork this afternoon for like 2hours. den i came online after that and i read this horoscope on friendster and i find it really true.

Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)

Any tests or challenges you encounter today should not frighten you! Relax and be confident about how you'll do. You are in complete control of your abilities, and the outcome is totally up to you. If you've done your homework, prepared to your best ability, and created a positive visualization of your success, then the outcome will be a very good one. Preparation is all you need to focus on, and it's not too late to get in some last-minute cramming!

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took a number of picture last night up on my bed.
making full use of my K810i 3.2megapixels camera phone. :P

2007-08-06T15:47:00.000+08:00

i wished i have got long hair now. i miss my hair. when i have it long, i feel like having it short. ARGH... tough decision. and i am patiently waiting for it to grow.

i need to start revising on my schoolwork already. if not i am not able to catch up. last week and this week there's no lesson. as the lecturer is not free and thursday is national day. and my next lesson is on the 16th aug. bored!

a group pic of us on star's birthday.

to you:

problems are surrounding me now. what should i do? i hope i solve it all by this year. its not that i dont wanna contact you. i will call you once i have got the _____. i am not making this friendship worst. i just dont know how to face it. so i chose to ignore. i know you have got problems but i do feel not at ease too. do you know? yes! i am very picky and choosy. what is wrong with that? that's my character. accept me if not just get away from me. sorry for me being so rude. but every one of us have got patience. i will contact you asap.

2007-08-03T08:22:00.000+08:00

3years 3months

hubby dear & piggy baobei

may we cherish every moment spent together. may we continue to be as loving to each other. may we just forget about those unhappy stuff between us. may we be true to each other. may we just be like how we used to be at the very first day we met. my love for you is still the same. may we be together forever. just u and me.

happy 19th birthday to augusta.

friends forever girl. hope you enjoyed yourself on that day. and do enjoyed yourself with your bf on your actual day. do remember me k! let's meet up again. and we are going to get our driving license together. also, take lots care!

2007-08-01T12:03:00.000+08:00

its 1st of august! i have got new bed arriving in my room. so excited over it for i-dont-know-what-reason-too. haha.

and 1st august, i am going to star's birthday chalet. gonna meet angeline at 3pm later on to help out star at the chalet. so looking forward to it. but i dont know will hubby change his mind and not go last minute. or will he surprise me? i doubt so! ):

every 1st of the month is here, i am always looking forward to 3rd & 4th. it have got beautiful memories for this two days. i always treasure this two days the most and those days i spend with hubby.
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changes of me will be made soon. but i hope you wont get so worked up if the results are not made as quickly as you want. yup, you said we both are at fault this time, so i will be giving you time. no worries for me to wait. i am willing to wait for you. because i love you.

i miss your hugs.
i miss your kisses.
i miss your everything.

2007-07-30T09:50:00.000+08:00

i love my NEW blog song. and the NEW blogskin. i feel so bored at home without knowing what i should do. so i just edited my blog!
i wanted to borrow this book called I Believe You. went to the library to look for it, but its always not on loan. and i am so looking forward to reading it. i just feel like ordering it online, costing at 20plus bucks. ARGH!! but i dont have a single cent. so sad! been to the library for quite afew times lar, still dont have! ):
the blog song is found from the storybook's website den i went over to imeem.com to search it. (: its such a sad and sweet midi.
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i miss you. its been like 4days since we last met. when will be our next meeting up. sometimes i just dont understand you. why cant we just look into problems and solve it together. why must you be alone. do you know that we are so lack of communication. though i feel so happy being with you everyday, but do you know there's actually alot of questions between us that is in me. i have got no one to turn to. parents asked me where are you, i can only tell them your in camp. but actually you are not. can we just spare some time and have a heart to heart talk. i am so lost without knowing what i should do the next min.

When i run away from you-FOLLOW ME.
When i pout my lips-KISS ME.
When i ignore you-I WANT YOUR ATTENTION.
When i scream at you-TELL ME YOU LOVE ME.
If i dont call you-I'M WAITING BY THE PHONE FOR YOUR CALL.

2007-07-28T19:56:00.000+08:00

YEAH!
i am getting back my DS LITE today. miss it so damn much man. i am going to the airport later to fetch my sister. its been so long since i last went to the airport. and i miss travelling. someday i will travel. (:

cold war? no calls. no sms. no respond from you.
maybe you been waiting for me to call.
and i am waiting for you to call.
so in the end, both not giving each other any calls.
i miss you, i do miss you alot.

Man Should Be Making The First Move.
(quote from Channel8 9pm show)